Prompt #5/Casey's biggest fear
Casey Z.
Prompt #5: Greatest Fear… [private]



I bet you think that I'm going to say that "I'm not afraid of anything". Bullshit. Everyone's afraid of something, or someone. Often both.

When I was little I used to be afraid of firemen. I don't know why, but I was. This strange fear lasted until a few years from high school. It was kind of weird.

I don't fear much anymore. These days the fears I do have are a bit different.

I fear Jade finding out that I may have somehow summoned her to this world. It started with a dream, which became a series of dreams. They were about Jade, and she was so beautiful and carefree. I wanted to see if I could make her real. I didn't think she was really real, I thought my subconscious had just dreamed her up, so I did a ritual.

I wanted to bring her here into this reality. It seemed like a good idea at the time. I did not know that she was a real person with a real life in a real world. I know that's no excuse but I don't know what else to say about that. I feel bad and I would like to get her home but I don't know how.

Okay that's not entirely true; I don't really want to send her back unless I could go with her too. Fuck, I really like her and I don't want to lose her. Maybe that's my biggest fear…losing Jade.

If she finds out I could lose her and if she goes back to her world I lose her.

I need a win here.