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[Prompt #5] Greatest Fear.
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Is my greatest fear discovery?

The real world finally peeking in on my deadly dark deviancy. It does have its... frightening qualities. They'd lock me up, possibly even through me on death row. The idea of death doesn't scare me. You can't do what I do and not have a simple reverence and acceptance for it. So no, discovery is not my greatest fear. It's what would come after.

The disappoint, damage, and depression it would inflict on those who care about me. My dear Deb would be devastated, and I can only imagine what would happen to Rita. And in this instance, it's not about feeling for their feelings, it's about something bigger.

Failing them. Failing myself.

And that's the true greatest fear of this neat little monster.

Failure. I have to control everything, keep it running properly, every bit in its neat place.

That's the Harry way. And Harry's way doesn't allow for failure.

Muse: Dexter Morgan
Fandom: Dexter
Words: 150