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Prompt #4 - What Song Best Describes You And Why?


Homeward by VNV Nation



The hallowed lands so far behind
As fleeting dreams still linger
Like distant voices through the rain
Like grains of sand cast from my hands

I never thought I'd go this far
Without a star to cross the seas
So far from shores I'd left behind
Still far from shores I've yet to reach

I try to find the strength I need
To calm the doubts in my belief
With the will, I know my heart won't break

And if I have strength, then I've belief
If I have love, my heart still beats
Here under stars
Far from home

The picture fades, the light recedes
The sound is lost in whispers
My recollections once clear and pure
Now distant lights that dim with time

I never thought I'd go this far
Without a star to cross the seas
So far from shores I'd left behind
Still far from shores I've yet to reach




I thought I could do anything as long as I had love, as long as I had family and pride and that which I had to do, as eldest son. But it was in the end love that drove me hither. And then I lost it, and thought I had lost my way. Hallucinating, delusional, some kind of explanation for everything that seemed to crumble around me. My father dead, my brothers, my sister, my cousins, everyone dropping around me like flies. My people, more in the ground than standing with me. We were failing at everything, and I was as well. I thought I could do it, that we would endure. Leaving my home was terrifying. I hate boats. But love was uprooted from that home and onward ahead of me like a bright star to lead me, and so everyone left, and I with them. Some small part of me still hopes that forever is not to be had alone, but I leave that in a box buried deep within, where it will never spill out, but can during my quiet moments be opened and remembered. I still feel that there is yet more to come for me, yet I am not sure what it will be. Perhaps I am here to learn how to lose that which only causes me pain and holds me back from more.



I am actually a fan of a group of musicians called Clannad really and listen to their music a great deal, but this was the first song I saw.

muse: findekano
fandom: silmarillion