InsaneJournal

Prompt 36
It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
-- 30 Seconds To Mars

Oh, if only it was that simple.  I would give anything to be able to forget; when I wake in the night in a cold sweat of terror, reliving those days of torture in Angband, the days of grief following Findekano's death, the days when my sword was dead with the blood of those I'd killed; not just orcs but elves too.  To wash away the past is impossible because it happened and it cannot be un-done or unwound. I will never be able to wash that guilt and that blood from my memories, my heart.

I do my best to forget, or at least to try not to think about it any more. I live in a very different world now, this modern age. There are no orcs here, no battles, no Silmarils. The streets here do not run red with blood. But elves have long lives, and our very nature ensures that we do not completely forget.