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[VIMH] 31 - What have you done that you wish you could apologize for?
I wish I could apologize to Maxie for breaking. I broke and she tried fixing me and I hurt her. Apologize for making her kill me, not giving her a choice. I should have tried finding my siblings when things started going wrong. Found a better way to seek them out then killing and leaving my barcode. Maxie was the one I thought would understand me and maybe she did. She knew something was wrong and I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to admit I was a 'Nomlie. I can admit it now, I can admit I was a bad soldier, but I'm fixed now. I promise.

I just want to find Maxie and let her see me, see that I'm not broken. To tell her I am sorry for letting her down and not being stronger. To have her keep me from ever breaking again, but it's best she doesn't see me. I just watch her and try to make sure she is safe. I fight the longing to belong in Terminal City with the others.

Someday she will know I am sorry.

Ben 'X5-493' // Dark Angel // 185 Words