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Feb. 24th, 2019


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I am getting the hang of my magic now. Though I have to wonder what limits I may or may not have to it being a goddess and all. Or perhaps there are limits this world imposes that may not exist in the world of my dreams. I have seen my dream self is rather powerful where magic is concerned, but she is a warrior first, preferring to use her sword and fight on the front lines as opposed to standing back and using spells.

I am also surprised. My marriage to Odin in the dreams is actually not horrible. It seems as though he and I genuinely did fall in love despite the bitter war both of our people fought over. Though I did not need to know I have a son with him. That is too painful

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Bao just won the Oscar for Best animated Short. Domee Shi, the director, is the first female to helm a Pixar short.

I'm so thrilled. It's amazing to me how things have changed from when I was a child. Representation is slowly reaching the media, females are given opportunities...yes, I recognize there's hard work at play and it's ongoing but really -- so much better than before.

Positivity, my friends!

Feb. 23rd, 2019


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I was feeling tired this afternoon, so took off from work early and came home to rest.

I passed out on the couch, slept for what felt like hours, dreamt again. I'm such a horrible person in my dreams. I just...I hope I'm not like that.

Now I am channel surfing, can't find anything to watch.

I don't even know why I'm posting this, I should just delete it.

Feb. 22nd, 2019


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So this is Valarnet. I was told this was the place to go if you wanted to be "in the know" outside of campus. I'm not sure what that flyer was all about - especially after looking at some of the other posts on here - but I figure asking some locals for some tried-and-true places to go sounds like the best thing to do for a girl still new to the city.

Personally, I've always felt that the bird's eye view is always the best way to get a lay of the land. Inside Orange County, the highest point is Santiago Peak - no relation - and I can tell you from first-hand experience that it's definitely worth the trip up. At the top there's really not much going on except a wide variety of communication towers, but if you turn back toward the coast... man...

What. A. View.

Feb. 18th, 2019


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I've been forced to think about light versus dark as a metaphor for good versus evil for the last infinite number of weeks.

And you know what? That metaphor is bullshit.

You know what lasers are made of? Fucking light, that's what.

You know what would destroy everything on earth if it wasn't for the ozone layer? Fucking light from the sun, that's what!

Light is not inherently synonymous with happy good friend feelings. I hate this metaphor.

Another complaint for thought.

Jan. 28th, 2019


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I bought the Entertainment Weekly with Black Panther's mask on the cover... the Oscar edition one! I'm super excited to get all caught up on the films for the Oscars and cuddle up to watch the show. Do the Oscars get anyone else excited? I love the glitz and glam, and celebrating people who make wonderful films!

Jan. 25th, 2019


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I am still getting used to these devices, but it was recommended that I try to find new ways to socialise outside of school.

My name is Wanda, I am a student, I have recently been relocated to America in the last few years and meeting new people would be rather nice.

I may start adopting cats if I do not find something to do with myself.

Jan. 24th, 2019


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It seems that my magic decided to start manifesting during that last invasion. And it couldn't have come at a better time either. Now I just need to better learn how to use it.

Jan. 23rd, 2019


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Hi everyone. My name is Padmé and I've just been introduced to....all this.

Last week, I was a surfer and a wedding/events planner. I obviously didn't know what I didn't know, but now? I guess that band-aid has been ripped off. I mean, I'm still a surfer and a wedding/events planner (Storr Weddings -- we do more than just weddings!), so that's still the same.

I'll be blunt: is there anyone that can guide me to some self-defense classes? I don't ever want to feel that helpless again.

Nov. 27th, 2018


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I like this time of the year because it means I can make things with my crock-pot. I really should upgrade to an Instant Pot, so might have to send that as an idea to my parents for Christmas. I just really love having my dinner completely ready by the time I get home.

Anyone got some good recipes to share? My friend just sent me this amazing sounding crock-pot mac and cheese!

Nov. 25th, 2018


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There is a giant wall around Seattle in my dreams. No one allowed in or out. Why do I feel like my dreams are becoming a bad foreshadowing of real life?

Nov. 19th, 2018


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Is anyone else a fan of Parking Wars? Please tell me someone else loves this hot mess of a trainwreck as much as I do.

If you've never seen it, here ya go!

Nov. 18th, 2018


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I can't believe Thanksgiving is this week. I also feel like this year has gone on FOR-EVER. I remember back on things and go oh wait, that was just this year. I've got so much to get ready so I can go back up to Oregon to see my parents. I really wish they would just come down here, but apparently not this year - my sister just had a baby and still lives up there, so I get to be the one to travel. Joy.

I've also had so many dreams this weekend and it's all just confusing and frustrating. It's still continuing to play just like you would expect it to go when you shove two attractive people together and tell them love is forbidden. I can't help but roll my eyes - future space people are not smart sometimes.

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The good thing about being from a time zone that is two hours behind local time is that I can use those “extra hours” to completely finish unpacking and decorating my apartment.

The bad thing is that I lose some sleep cause I’m trying to wake up at a normal time here.

Any tips for going to sleep earlier? I’ve tried but I just end up staring at the ceiling.

Oct. 29th, 2018


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Is it just me or this the most Monday-ist of Mondays?

My computer decided to go haywire this morning and started opening windows and programs all by itself. It even started writing a bunch of gibberish on a Word Document before I managed to turn the thing off. I was pretty close to just saying Not Today, Satan and throwing it at the wall - I've seen how this horror movie goes.

I just hope to god the coffee maker doesn't go crazy.

Oct. 14th, 2018


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After working on the club, Pandemonium, the grand opening will on Halloween Night!

Drinks, music, a dance floor and some live entertainment throughout the night!

Costume not required but where’s the fun in that?

Club will be 18+ but no drinks for minors, those are the rules.

The fun begins 8pm and how until the club closes!

Oct. 13th, 2018


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I wish I could claim credit, I really like their style.

But I have an alibi.

Oct. 7th, 2018


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It has been a little over a month since I have moved here. Everyone I met so far has been beyond welcoming.

But these dreams. Do they always mirror your own life so closely?

Oct. 6th, 2018


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When the American Bar Association warns against putting someone on the bench and you do it anyway because of politics, you are a very special sort of stupid. Whether or not he did what he was alleged to have done (and I personally believe Ford), you can’t tell me that he has the demeanor you want someone on the supreme court to have. Judges are meant to be unbiased and level headed. That’s why we have judges. The Supreme Court is meant to decide if laws go against the spirit and letter of the constitution or not without dragging their own personal politics or other biases into effect. He was given his seat because of his bias. Everyone that voted yes deserves to be voted out of office.

Oct. 2nd, 2018


[info]darkforcerising
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[info]darkforcerising
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Oh, U2 I HAVE finally found what I'm looking for. Until this moment I didn't know how incomplete I was.


[Private to Ahsoka and Padme]
I'm going out of town on Friday. I need someone to look after the Majestic Sand Beast. Can one of you do that?


[Private to Kira Yukimura, Lily Evans, Andromeda Black]
You guys up for a vacation in Mexico? Plans include skydiving, bungee jumping, base jumping - okay, jumping off of really high things. Y/Y?

Sep. 28th, 2018


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Well, thankfully all of that was over before I got the call asking me if I was interested in doing Rocky Horror again this year. It’s going to be at [Theater] on [address] the Friday before Halloween this year. If anyone is interested, they’re still looking for actors for the shadow cast! So anyone want to come do the Time Warp again?

In other news, I have an audition coming up for our school's performance of Heathers. Wish me luck, I'm trying out for Heather M.

Sep. 25th, 2018


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There was an odd time jump in my dreams. I just finished one set apparently and then had nothing for a while, but last night it was like watching a weird sped up version of my life, and then suddenly it's brought back into focus and it's 10 years later!

Not my favorite dream since it started with a literal bang - someone set up an explosion after we landed in Corusant in attempt to assassinate me and ended up killing one of my handmaidens. That's when we called in reenforcements to beef up my security.

And let me just tell you that what happens next is totally the beginning of a romance movie - I can basically tell you exactly what's going to happen by just a few looks. This'll be interesting.

Sep. 3rd, 2018


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Well, Magnus and I are moved into our new place which, also, happens to be above a gay club that we, now, own.

While we are still decorating and such, it's nice to have a place that is 100% ours, again. No offense, Izzy.

The club is temporarily closed but we'll have a grand reopening, since it's under new management. Details, soon to come.

Sep. 1st, 2018


[info]darkforcerising
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Gee, thanks Network, I really wanted a smelly sand beast to remind me of all the abuse I endured when I was stuck on that trash planet.

What am I supposed to do with it?

Cut for picture of cute baby bantha - aka smelly sand beast )

Aug. 31st, 2018


[info]queenofnaboo
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I really feel like I need a vacation. Work has just been exhausting and I think I need a break to recharge. Anyone ever just go to the airport and buy a random plane ticket? I am so tempted to do something like that. Or maybe I will be slightly more responsible and see if there are any good deals online. I'm not really picky, but does anyone have a recommendation?

Jul. 25th, 2018


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[info]queenofnaboo
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What kind of kid asks if you're an angel the first time you meet him? Is someone teaching this kid pick up lines at age 9?

Anyone else get a little more exhausted after dreaming? I thought I got a solid 6/7 hrs, but I feel like I only got 3.

Jul. 6th, 2018


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Has everyone heard about the rhino poachers that were eaten by lions in Africa? Now that's what I call karma. Honestly, does anyone feel bad for these guys? I certainly don't. Far as I'm concerned, they got what they deserved.

Jun. 25th, 2018


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Time jumps in Dreams are kinda crazy. I was just being elected Queen and now here I'm sitting with a war starting to brew. It reminds me a lot of the political climate we have in this world right now though. There's a Trade Federation that's have a trade route dispute with the Galactic Republic and they've decided my planet is the one they need to have a blockade around.

A lot of disagreements and then those jerks decided to invade my planet! They tried to kidnap me, but I had one of my handmaidens step in as a decoy queen before some Jedi Knights appeared to help us escape the planet. I'm currently still pretending to be just a handmaiden on this trip and it's definitely a motely crew. There's an adorable astromech called R2D2 and an odd Gungan called Jar Jar Binks and we're on our way to some planet called Tatooine.

Jun. 22nd, 2018


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Robotic Arm Plan 2.0 - hydraulic sound effects for when I make rude hand gestures.

Rude hand gestures for the cosmos, of course.

Jun. 10th, 2018


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Google is apparently celebrating the garden gnome today (just go with it) and in doing so is running a rather addictive game through their search pages in which you fling various garden gnomes Pumkin' Chunkin' style along a garden path to plant as many flowers as you can.

If you're looking to kill a few minutes (or an hour) take a look.

May. 26th, 2018


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I had this really weird dream earlier today and I've been so busy that I completely forgot to post on here, but it seems like the ones that everyone talks about.

I lived on a place that looked a lot like Earth, but it was called Naboo. It was kind of a fast forward of growing up in this world and discovering there's a whole other galaxy of planets out there. I joined some youth programs that taught about the government/senate and was eventually elected Queen of the planet. Who elects a 14 year old girl to be a Queen?!?!

Apr. 7th, 2018


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I realized I completely forgot to post something in here after I was told to join this network. I got to admit that I'm a bit old fashioned when it comes to things like this, but I think it'd probably be good to get out there and network with more people.

My name is Padme Amidala - I'm currently working with a company that helps serve humanitarian aide around the world. Basically I help put together all the logistics and occasionally get to go out with the supplies and help, which is exciting for me because I did a couple years in the Peace Corp so I really enjoy being there with people.

Other than that I spend an ungodly amount of time on the quest for the perfect cupcake. So far there's a couple places that are on my list, but I haven't quite reached that cupcake nirvana yet, so close though.

Jan. 20th, 2015


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Anyone have dreams about being royalty?

Jan. 17th, 2015


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So this is where I go to talk about dreams, right? And talking about it is supposed to help maybe?

I've got nothing to complain about who I am in these dreams, because to be quite honest, I'm an adorable kid.

Cut for discussions of slavery and child abuse - still open to everyone )

Jan. 5th, 2015


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Today was my first day back to work. Part-time for the moment, but still a big deal. Maternity leave was quite nice and I loved spending so much time with the twins, but I was beginning to become restless. Of course I feel terrible leaving my babies to go to work, but I know they are in good hands while I'm at work. At least the holidays are over for now so there's a lot less stress.

Oh, and my husband sent me the most lovely flowers as a surprise and that certainly brightened up my day!

Nov. 20th, 2014


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We are in desperate need of a babysitter the Saturday after Thanksgiving.

The twins are harder than sitting a pet rock, but easier to watch than a litter of puppies. Like, a large litter of puppies.

If you think you have the skills for this, apply here.

Again, this is a desperate need.

Oct. 20th, 2014


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Thank you so much to everyone who made it to the baby shower this past Saturday! I still can't believe the little ones decided they need to make an appearance at the shower. I really appreciate you all coming, helping us out, and the amazing gifts. It was also great to have my family come down as well and I am so happy to be able to get a little more sleep in the mornings since my mother is in love with her grandbabies.

I took a lot of photos and will have to send out copies in the thank you cards - so if you came to the movie look for a picture of you and the twins in your mailbox soon.

I also can't decide if the twins are too small to dress up for Halloween or not. Still debating with Anakin on that one.

Oct. 4th, 2014


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I can see the babies moving around in my stomach. It is equal parts amazing and creepy. Like they're both tiny ninjas or something because they are constantly pushing and kicking. I think they're ready to come out into the world.

Speaking of their birth, I would like to have a baby shower with people from the network. I know it's slightly late notice, but would the 18th work for people? It's not terribly formal, but it's open for anyone that would like to attend even if we don't know each other. This is a good way for Anakin and I to meet more of you.

Sep. 12th, 2014


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[info]darkforcerising
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I've maxed out my work hours. Need entertainment. Anyone free to play some Mario Kart?

Sep. 10th, 2014


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Bed rest isn't as fun as one would think it is. But I'm making it work by also working at the same time. I don't think my doctor intended for me to have meetings on the phone while in bed and working my normal hours, but I'm going to. I can't just sit around the house doing nothing until the twins decide to make their appearance in the world.

I must also say that eloping was probably the best thing in the world. The stress of planning a wedding is lifted off my shoulders and I can slowly make plans for a real wedding and not have to worry about anything. My last name is changed and the twins will have Anakin as their father on the birth certificate and that's all I really care about. But I must admit I'm excited for a real wedding in the future so I can wear my dream gown.

But I do have to say I'm really missing being able to have a pumpkin spice latte.

Aug. 20th, 2014


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I had to take a business trip back up to wine country and ended up bringing back...well, I would say more wine than I can drink, but that's not entirely true.

More wine than is socially acceptable for one girl to drink?

Anyone else occasionally finding themselves with this problem or is it just me?

Aug. 5th, 2014


[info]queenofnaboo
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[info]queenofnaboo
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I try not to post every bit of my life on the network (no one wants to hear everything about my pregnancy), but I need some ideas on this one.

Anakin was in an accident almost a week ago and had to be put in a medically induced coma to help him recover. He thankfully awakened on Sunday, but parts of his memory are missing. So, since that happened he's being forced (against his will, he wants to say) to recover in the hospital for a while longer while they monitor him.

And of course this is driving him absolutely insane. Does anyone have any fun tips to pass the time in a hospital room? It would also help me out since I'm spending more of my time here than at our house.

Aug. 1st, 2014


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Okay so I finally get to announce this! It took us a while 'cause like... Lara was pretty horrified in the beginning and I wanted to give her time to deal. Plus there's that 'danger period' I guess?

But HEY!

WE'RE PREGNANT!

I know, right? HOW DID THAT HAPPEN, SAM? Well I'm glad you asked, strangers. As it turns out, when Orange County turns a girl into a man with man parts, those man parts are actually capable of doing what man parts do.

It's currently the size of a lime (but I like to call him or her 'the blueberry') and none of my pants fit, and I think I skipped nausea and went straight to cravings, but we're like... healthy and stuff. And now you know!

Jul. 29th, 2014


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Wow. I can't believe there's 100 days left in my pregnancy. I feel like it should be over much sooner than that since I feel like I'm about to explode. I'm really not sure if my stomach is going to continue to grow, but it's already so gigantic. Twins are definitely a handful, but I can finally feel them kick and such and it just takes my breath away.

I'm excited though because I'm going home to Oregon this weekend for my first baby shower. I have to get it done before I can't fly anymore. I'll probably have another one here in the OC a little further down the road, but I'm so excited about this one.

Jul. 19th, 2014


[info]queenofnaboo
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I am seriously suprised this is a thing right now.
Split California into six states

I can't believe people are still going on about how California is too big and should be split up into smaller states. Doing that would not solve the problems listed and just seems silly in the end. We have much larger issues to deal with and I could never see this going through Congress.

Jul. 15th, 2014


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I GOT IT, TOO.

My legal license, I mean. Now I need an office.

Jun. 25th, 2014


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Interesting dreams the last few nights (don't we start all posts like this around here?). There was a crying baby, and a school that was like a prison, and some truly horrific solitary confinement. But at least I didn't paint food pictures on the wall, a la a certain Netflix Original Series.

More interesting to note, though, is that I woke up with the lightsaber I had just dreamed about on my bedside table. So I guess special gifts from home (listen to me! From home.) is the newest side effect to regaining these memories. I have to admit, it did feel very natural holding it for real.

First the dreams, then the little...shall we call them "cognitive abilities," and now actual items?? Is there anything else I should be expecting??

Jun. 23rd, 2014


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It's been pretty quiet around here lately. Although I do hear a lot of noise coming from where Obi-Wan's workshop is, which is great. I am trying to resist the urge to get yet another animal to add to the pack we have going - Anakin keeps giving me dirty looks when I snuggle with Artoo and let out that sigh of "I want another pet".

However, I did get to go find out the sex of the babies. We're going to be having one of each! Just like in my dreams, which is kind of freaking me out a little I'm super excited about that and I'm going to wait until the weekend to go looking around for some clothing ideas and maybe put together a baby registry at a few places. My mother has been hounding me to do it.

May. 20th, 2014


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Some of you know already, but Frodo and I are expecting again!

And it's twins this time!

May. 19th, 2014


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[info]valarnet
I've found assisting at a local shelter to be a very healing experience. I've been able to pick up my tools again. I no longer feel sick at the smell of sawdust and paint. Though it may be over for curry. There is a bit of light at the end of this tunnel.

Although I did run into an old friend the other day, and that has sent my head spinning.

I wonder if I might ultimately return to law. The idea has been bouncing about. I feel that I need a change. The people at the shelter know me as Ben, for example. I'm still not sure why that was what popped out of my mouth.