I piss myself off sometimes,
especially in my dreams. Nikki asked me if I loved Vasiliy and I answered honestly. I told her that I did. That prompted an argument and for a
second I made myself proud. I brought up the fact that she stole my laptop and left me for dead which of course enraged her and prompted her to tell me that there's something wrong with me. Then I told her that I'd always been in love with her and it has never made me happy.
Then we had sex.
Boom. Every bit of progress I made out the window. I frustrate myself beyond words.
I need a drink.