Sometimes I really, really hate it when my suspicions about some things are proven true.
Locked to Les Amis So. Tonight I watched our barricade fall in a mixture of smoke, gunpowder, canons, fire and blood and bayonets. I won't tell all of you what happened when and whether or not you survived if you don't want me to. If you would like to be prepared, I'll speak of it, but I have to get a few other things about this out before I try that.
I highly value each of you, in our last life, and this one, and your contributions to our cause. Thank you for your willingness to stand up for the republic and for what was right and true and real.Thank you for your willingness to preserve those things in this world as well as that one, and remember that by our example, regardless of the outcome, we stood for what was right and true, divine and beautiful.
I am honored to have worked with you then and to be working with you now, and that fully understanding the risks then, you undertook them, even to the point of fear most of you must have carried there, but worked through and with, in the hour of our greatest need. My friends. My brothers. I would repeat that life a thousand times over to have all of you at my side, though I hope now that there are better ways to fight and help and things to do.
Never forget that I love you, as I love Patria, and always shall do so.
Locked FROM Les Amis and also Chetta: Tonight I watched my best friends die, falling before my eyes, each one more awful than the last. And my closest friend went down while being bayoneted while he helped a wounded enemy. I was the only one left to see it, and to stand and still face them, after having been through all of that. I do feel sorry and a deep grief for their deaths, as I was leading them, but as I said, I know that it was not my fault, and they knew what they were getting into. All the same, I feel the need to turn to them, a little stronger than this time last week. Perhaps that is some sort of sign.
At any rate, since I'm not going back to sleep, I might as well see to the content of the brochures for the literacy drive and take them down to the print shop while on my way to class. I'd wondered how I'd make the time, so, really. Win/Win?