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I'm not going to lie, I've kind of enjoyed this week. As always, there are days I identify as more feminine, days I identify as more masculine, and days that I fall somewhere in between. The inbetween days are the ones I experience the most often. But on my more boy days, it was kind of nice ...not to be perceived wrong. Not that the people closest to me have ever had a problem with asking which pronouns I prefer any given day.

I don't know where I'm going with this. Just, I understand how some people haven't been enjoying this and why. But it's been sort of a nice experience on my end.

I never realized before how much differently people treat you by how old they think you are. I can't drive right now, no one would believe my ID is me. And gods know Nico is overprotective enough right now. So I haven't really had many opportunities to leave the house. I've been doing all my classwork online for now, and just for a change of scenery decided to go to a coffee shop.

I'm an art major. Specifically, I'm studying cgi and animation. So most of my classwork is... drawing. And the amount of people who came up to me today as I was working on my sketches to be patronizing was just insane. Yes, I'm sitting here and doing art. No I'm not doing "silly drawings instead of my homework", yes it's nice that your child is "a little artist too". No I can't draw you whatever you ask for and give it to you (or more insultingly, sell it to you for five dollars or less). I'm already busy with what I'm already drawing.

And artists get enough of the last part as it is, with people both consuming our work without appreciating that it is work as it is. But when I'm thirteen again...

I don't know, maybe being thirteen again is affecting my hormones. Or maybe I never realized how annoying it was when I was thirteen the first time.

Oh thank god. I've never been happier to be back in my own body.

And it means I can finally go visit my siblings and Helen can't go telling them that they got a new sister. I'm definitely going to go pick up some goodies to bring them so they know who the best older sibling is ;)

Anyone else suddenly turn 7 years old for a week? Or was that just me?

[Max and Isobel]
Thanks for you know... putting up with all that.

Why must there be some sort of reason for someone to get a large pile of books on a given subject? Can't a person just get lost in the history section and end up with nine books that are generally focused because of aforementioned getting lost in the history section?