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At some point I hope I get used to waking up from these damn things in a sweat.

I really don't get it. In one Dream I'm a doctor of some kind starting some kind of paramilitary project as a cover for some kind of experimentation with artificial intelligence and in the next dream I'm a military grunt in the project. I don't...I don't understand these Dreams.

All I do know is that they make my head hurt. And I have no desire to go back to sleep.

I'm looking for someone to paint a mural with sunflowers in my daughter's bedroom, maybe with a horse and/or unicorn or two frolicking through the field. The room has to be re-painted, which I'll be working on next weekend, so it won't be until sometime in August when it'll be ready. So, if anyone could help me out with that? I'd be grateful.

You'll be paid, of course, and free meals will be provided by my lovely wife.

It looks like I have received my first dream gift.

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OW.

So either someone is playing an elaborate prank on me, or my dreams don't actually know how old I am.

I get up early this morning, to get a drink of water. It's been a long night, and I stub my toe on something against my door. Super painful. Get a sliver too, why? Because it's wood.

It's THIS thing. I'd be super excited to see it, except I cannot hold it, and it tried to kill me at night.

... I also looked in my closet to find a green tunic. Best fit for a ten year old. I give up.

I've just spent the weekend out of town visiting a friend and her new baby. Lots of pictures, lots of baby smiles. It makes me wonder what Dior's first couple of years were like. Makes me wonder if I'll ever experience it myself.

I was flipping through the channels. And there was this show, and they were showing all kinds of videos of things exploding. It made me think of Lina, and I started crying all over again because she'd have loved this fucking show.

I am getting married on Saturday and I can't lie that it makes me nervous.

I know that I can talk to my fiance and his sisters about all the nerves, but I kind of just need reassurance from someone that isn't involved.

Any words of encouragement/reassurance that things will be okay?

I love him, and we've been together almost 10 years...I'm definitely ready to be married to him, so why do I feel like this?

I now have a release date for my next album.

Shadows of Twilight drops September 8th.