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My dream self is even worse at conversation than my real self. Is that irony?

It seems to be the week to get pets. Meet Tsavo. She's an Ashera, which is actually a fairly new breed. I have to admit, the scientist in me wants to observe her to see how much of her wild cat lineage remains. She's fun to take on walks - that photo is of a little girl who asked for me to take a photo of her with the cat. So far, I'm very pleased.

I never expected that the first time I would feel emotions like this, it would come from inside a dream. Even though the dreams are... more lucid than any dream I've ever dreamt. Even though it feels like when I close my eyes, instead of sleeping I am actually being transported to another world where my other life awaits to unfold before me.

It never occurred to me that we would feel the things we feel in those dreams. That those feelings would follow us to our waking moments. But there is no Tidus here, so now I am in love with a ghost

I find that even though the journey I am on is not an easy one, these days I cannot wait to fall asleep. I want to see all of those faces again, I want to feel what she's feeling. I don't want it to fade away.

You would think that, as someone with such a close connection to time, I would sport an abundance of patience.

Alas, we would all be wrong.

Oops.

Nothing is allowed to happen this week. I'm so far behind on my paperwork I literally can't see my desk. Still. I was feeling nostalgic about my time as a teacher, but this month has shown me that I really can't commit to that job anymore. It's mildly depressing.

My dreams involve significantly less murder lately.

That's nice, all things considered.

With each passing full moon, I get even more anxious. I can feel the pull of it more than I did a few months ago, but each month it comes and goes and I remain myself. I'm grateful for that of course, but it causes me to dread the following month and I wonder if it will finally be the month that I change. I don't want to be unprepared, but I also don't want to lock myself up on the off chance that it might happen during that full moon. This is so very nerve wracking. Not to mention, I haven't exactly looked for a place to lock myself up in either. I suppose I should get on that.

I'm going do it. I'm going to really do it this time.

I'm quitting smoking. So please give me every stupid tip you have to stop.

Trying to sort out the math on such things as the bizarre nature of the whosits and whatnots of this place is a bit impossible, innit?

At least we have at least three people as smart as I am to sort it out. That's a bit of luck.

HEY DAMON!

I got pics in front of all the coasters. Went on everything TWICE. How'd you do??