The worst part of hanging out with crazy people? You start to think like them. He's not gonna see this right now and it'll be covered up by the time I decide to post his bail, which I'm seriously waiting on right now, until he's, you know, stable, so I can say it here and not feel bad. What if Roy's actually
right? What if, in some sick sick way all of this is actually playing out making me...a really horrible person both here AND there?
What do I remotely start to DO with fixing that when I've got a whole shit load of stuff to fix here first? How do I even...
I hate it that I'm not always the hero, Valarnet, you know? I've made a TON of mistakes for probably my entire life, and it's only hitting me now. You'd think I would have gotten this sometime BEFORE I was thirty, wouldn't you? I...might need to talk to somebody about this. On a professional level I mean.
It's too many mistakes, too much guilt and regret that I've let build up and it's not something I want to focus on when I can make it better instead...
...Apparently I'm going on Nancy Grace tonight regarding the whole Deleon thing. Since this is my last day on Earth, anything special I can do for any of you?