User:	wallwalker
	Date:	2009-12-04 00:13
	Subject:	AO3
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The fics that I wrote and posted using fanaticalone on LJ back in the day are slowly being imported into my AO3 account.

Just for fun:

Number of stories on the archive as of now: 64 (some of them only show if you're logged in.)
Number of fandoms that I've been the first to post in so far: At least five (Valkyrie Profile: Lenneth, Star Ocean 2, Skies of Arcadia, Final Fantasy V, and Dragon Quest VIII.)
Number of the above fandoms that I'm still the only author in: All. :(
Number of fics that I've discovered that are lost due to community deletions: One that I'm sure about (an FFVI fic that I particularly liked, too) and possibly a few more SoA fics, all from the same community.) Although, to be fair to the community, it's as much my computer's fault for crashing and dying; I had backups, and they're gone now.
Current most popular tags in various category:
Rating: General beats out Teen by one (23 to 22.)
Category: Gen wins at 21.
Fandom: Star Ocean: The Second Story and Skies of Arcadia are tied at 20 (the latter mostly thanks to 30_kisses. Of course, I haven't gotten all of my SO2 claims added yet.)

Communities I've finished digging through to find my old fics (all on LJ):

antiotpficathon
user=5trueloves
esper_cave
springkink
30_kisses
temps_mort
100_leitmotifs

Other notes:
- I miss 100_leitmotifs and temps_mort. Both were great ideas for writing communities, and they're both pretty much dead now.
- I... I've written a lot of fic on LJ. Good grief.

...yes, I am going to get back to writing original stuff soon. This is just what I do when I'm too sick to think about it. Stupid cold.

	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-03 20:03
	Subject:	personal--i mean SRS bzns
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	Mood:	frustrated

I had a bit of an altercation today.

It really drove home to me that I need to find a way to actually deal with my stress. Because it bottles up and it bottles up and then it sort of explodes, and it leaves me upset and drained and usually having shouted at someone. My problem is mostly that I barely notice or acknowledge it building up until it's at critical levels and eating at me inside, and then I only really realize it's there when it all comes out.

Not the most healthy of patterns. I need to find a train to stand under and scream my frustration out to, I think.

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	User:	occhi_bella
	Date:	2009-12-03 22:20
	Subject:	Journey Home (fic_variations May 2008 challenge, part 10)
	Security:	Public

Title: Journey Home (Part 10)
Author: occhi_bella
Rating: T
fic_variations Prompt/Claim: Love/Hate, Time
Word Count: 1700
Warnings: Spoilers
Note: Based on an alternate universe in which Ichabod left the book that Katrina gave him behind.
Disclaimer: Sleepy Hollow and its characters do not belong to me. I make no money from this.

Link to first part.

	User:	bitterfig
	Date:	2009-12-03 14:10
	Subject:	too close for comfort
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My grandmother has dizzy spells and two days ago she had one while she was standing at the top of the cellar stairs. Thankfully she caught herself but it every so slightly sort of scared the hell out of me. I’ve told her to ask me to do anything that she might have to do near the cellar stairs and yesterday Pa-daddy rearranged the back room so that the cat’s litter box and the coat rack and the bin we keep bird food in are all away from the stairs. Hopefully that will prevent any future incidents. The whole thing was really scary, and reminded me of just how fragile my grandmother is and what could happen…

	User:	blktauna
	Date:	2009-12-03 11:06
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I can only watch James and OZ for about 10 minutes at a time. The bad behaviour and the stubborn willfulness just crack me up too much. Someone is begging for a spanking whether he realises it or not and I'm afraid that plays into so many of my kinks that it is impossible for me to not roar with laughter and miss most of what's going on.

Stupid thumb drive and windows... @.@  Why do people use microslave products.

Well I have the first line of yuletide. I think perhaps my anger over being forced to use AO3 is killing my inspiration. I do have a bit done on Sweeney but I'm not sure where I want to go with it yet. Aside from shagging.

I can not wait to get this computer desk built so I can get my room straightened out. The chaos is making me mental.
But when it is done, I will have all my video equipment set up properly and then can return to the business of redoing all my pros screencaps at a more reasonable size. Then do UNCLE ones, and some Top Gear ones (the lads and their mums... OMG so cute)

	User:	axelcolour
	Date:	2009-12-03 01:30
	Subject:	lol
	Security:	Public

• 03:47 Wow, MSI did a cover of Tom Sawyer. Nice. I'm late to the game, but still, nice. #ringring
• 20:45 New Claire Wendling book?? Maybe if I survive tomorrow I will buy it for myself.
• 21:10 @bizarrejelly I had braces for like 5 years, you're in good company!

	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-02 20:48
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	Mood:	weirded out

Now that I actually think about it, reading The Story of O at age ten may have had some effect.

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	User:	nanthimus
	Date:	2009-12-02 23:20
	Subject:	Wow, look, it's an actual UPDATE type thing
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OKAY. So, Black Friday was actually pretty anti-climactic, which was just fine with me. However, EVERY DAY AFTER IT HAS BEEN NOTHING SHORT OF HORRIBLE OMG. People, seriously. Just. Just go away. GO AWAY. :|

Also, I wasn't able to get a lappytoppy like I had planned, which was a downer. I was bitter, not gonna like. Still, it ended up being a good thing. I mean...I really don't have that kind of money to spend.

So I bought a PSP (whaaaaaat, I said I didn't have that kind of money to spend - the kind of money a PSP requires is much lower okay!) and one little game.

( Spoilers for Cloud, Tidus, and Cecil's Odysseys, as well as general DISSIDIA gameplay )

In other news, I have been quietly freaking out over Yuletide (WHAT WAS I THINKING) and wrangling tags (ugh, wait, why did I choose a fandom where everyone only has a first name?!). LIFE IS EXCITING.

Oh, hey, fic recs.

Allure of Honey, FF: Dissidia fic by Sinnatious. Cloud winds up in an outfit he swore he would never wear again. Crossdressing. Everyone/Cloud.

This fic. THIS FIC. I lol'd A LOT. Poor Cloud. <333333


Made for Much, FFXII fic by Original-Elfkin. Balthier is tired of the Westersands. Tired of the heat, tired of the sand stuck in every place, tired of his itchy 5 o'clock shadow. But a puzzle involving Vaan presents an entertaining distraction from his troubles. Pre-slash BalthierXVaan.

Another one that made me laugh, plus I really, really like the characterizations. I guess lulz are my main source of entertainment, what can I say.

This post originally made at Dreamwidth.

	User:	beccastareyes
	Date:	2009-12-02 22:41
	Subject:	Something off my To-Do List
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Things learned:
1. One edit is never enough.
2. Reading things aloud really does catch errors, even if it takes a half hour to read one 3,000 word chapter (that's 100 words a minute).

But, it's done. I finished my first multichapter fanfic in years -- I have a few, but the closest to done any of them are is 'rough draft'. Yes, I take this as Serious Writing, for all that it's fun stuff on the Internets.

Anyway, I present a Fullmetal Alchemist Space Opera AU focusing on Winry and Sheska. Because clearly I don't care if anyone actually reads stuff I poured blood, sweat and tears into.

	User:	bitterfig
	Date:	2009-12-02 16:09
	Subject:	Heroes and the Manchurian Candidate
	Security:	Public

Over the past month or so I’ve been getting quasi-obsessed with the television show Heroes. I watched Season 1 (very good) and Season 2 (very bad) on DVD and I’ve also been watching the current Season, 4.

( cut for spoilers )

	User:	glitterbats
	Date:	2009-12-02 11:44
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	Mood:	stressed

So, my hours have been cut. Good news is, I can still technically afford to pay my bills, I just won't have much if anything left over.

However, after this week is over I will probably not have a way to and from work. If my hours hadn't been cut I could afford to take a taxi, but now I can't.

Also I think some of the pipes may have busted.

	User:	litterae
	Date:	2009-12-02 13:35
	Subject:	Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone
	Security:	Public

My life is over. No, I'm not dead or even dying, at least not any more than we, all of us, are from the time we're born. In fact, using some definition of 'life' I might be around for a very long time more. Unfortunately, in my family, we tend to have very long 'lives'.

What I mean is, any hope I ever had of deriving any pleasure from life is gone. I should have seen it sooner, really. Like the smart little frog, I should have seen where this was going and given up and drowned. The stupid frog wins, someone saves him. No one's going to save me and frankly, I wouldn't want anyone else to save me. If I can't save myself, I don't want to be saved. And I can't. So, like I said. It's over.

You might ask what's changed since last night. Well, in a way, a lot of things have changed. It seems I will probably be stuck in this hell hole where I 'live' for - well, for as long as I 'live'. My one chance of getting out of here just vanished. I can't tell you exactly what happened, because it's still too painful. I don't even know the full circumstances yet. Chances are, I won't want to know.

Secondly, I had some other bad news. I can't tell you what that is either. You probably wouldn't understand, but it was the one thing I still had left to hope for, other than getting out of here.

It's time I face the facts. I'll never succeed in anything I try. I should have known sooner. I've been failing for more years than I like to remember. The truth is, I've never succeeded at anything after I left school.

Time to give up. Time to stop trying. Why should I set myself up for disappointment, when it's clear that nothing is ever going to work out? Each time I allow myself to hope, those hopes are crushed, sooner or later.

This time I should be smart and stop. Stop trying, stop hoping, stop hurting. Except that last one won't be possible. When I look at others around me the inevitable comparisons are going to show up. Why is she such a success when I'm not?

Of course, I only have myself to blame. I was born this way. Set up for failure from the time I was born. I've tried as hard as I've been able to try. As hard as someone like me is capable of. What a cruel joke.

I read somewhere that we, humanity, Earth, the universe, might just be one big simulation, created by some beings far more powerful than we are. In that case, i can only conclude that they did it out of spite. Doesn't everything seem like one big cruel, sadistic joke? To me it does.

So this is it. TIme to get smart. Time to finally learn from my life and take the consequences. Maybe it will hurt a little less if I stop trying.

	User:	missizzy
	Date:	2009-12-02 06:12
	Subject:	Grand Prix Finale
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Alternate title: "Watching the bandwidth anxiously..." It seemed to be better yesterday, though I'll test it again this morning.

Junior Ladies: Kanako, Polina, Kiri. Yeah, I pretty much went in order of qualification here. Also looking forward to: Ksenia! Especially if Johnny does sit with her in the kiss and cry.

Junior Pairs: Sui-Han, Novik-Kuznetsov, Takahashi-Tran. Simply because I cannot see there not being a Russian team on this podium. Also looking forward to: Hole & Johnson, who I enjoyed considerably from Lake Placid.

Junior Ice Dance: Ilinykh-Katsalapov, Shibutani-Shibutani, Monko-Khaliavin. Though the more cynical part of me is suggesting Russian sweep, the Shibutanis being the top qualifiers has to count for something. I&K will definitely win, however, to irritate me, because frankly I find their free dance offensive(it's different with the Zaretskis; it's their heritage; you gotta figure they're allowed. Or are one of I&K Jewish?) Also looking forward to: Ralph and Hill, and the new version of their OD.

Senior Ladies: Yu-Na, Joannie, Miki. I think they're working out their early-season kinks by now. Also looking forward to: Ashley, Ashley, Ashley! As long as she does not fall all over the place/come in last, I will be satisfied.

Senior Pairs: Shen-Zhao, Savchenko-Szolkowy, Mukhortova-Trankov. Poor Pang and Tong might just be out-politicked here, and in Vancouver. But Shen and Zhao will win so long as they skate clean. Also looking forward to: Shots of Ingo being amusing from the boards?

Senior Ice Dance: Virtue-Moir, Davis-White, Pechelat-Bourzat. Unless, of course, certain peoples want to really discourage Tanith and Ben, just to make sure the American teams don't claim any spots on the podium. Yes, I'm being bitter. Also looking forward to: At least we still have the Kerrs.

	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-01 23:26
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	Mood:	happy

You know another thing I love about Anne Bishop's books?

I love the role reversals. Men are stigmatized by rape, an attempt at rape, or the accusation of rape--INSTEAD OF WOMEN, THE VICTIMS. Women are viewed as the more stable gender; men are the ones who are in the position of 'overemotional' and 'hysterical.' Which is funny because it is a reversal of the way our society views us, but the behavior is not at all unrealistic for our culture, just amplified by magical excuses the way scientists put a microscope over bacteria. Look at this. Think about it. Women are the providers and protectors, not men. Men are in the social position of 'tempering' the women (this isn't as explicit as other reversals, but Falonar tells Surreal 'yeah, we do the grunt work because you guys are SO MUCH SCARIER when you get pissed off' and that draws parallels to the gendered views of parenting--the mother manages most of it and the father does the discipline.) The very way the story is told is a reversal in its own way; it's the story of the men only inasmuch as it is the story of how Jaenelle affects their lives.

Yes, we have Terreille, where there's the flip side to that--the negative one--but we also have decent male rulers in our world, and downright evil ones. It's reality, cast into fictionalized relief, emphasized by the support of the magic and manipulation to throw it into bold unignorable prominence.

I really, really loved her handling of the rut. Especially since I read a lot of supernatural stories, and even the ones that aren't romance novels screw this up consistently. Yes, she says, men have lusts, sure, and powerful physical urges, blah blah blah. But this does not even begin to make it okay. No, not even when it's all magical and shit! Considering that's a particularly rage inducing and deeply ingrained misogynistic part of our culture, that was beautiful to read.

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	User:	axelcolour
	Date:	2009-12-02 01:30
	Subject:	lol
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• 04:54 "I like cats, so sue me." "You know what, I think I could." God I love Home Movies.
• 17:29 @BabyGates666 you are too kind, lady :"D
• 17:34 @bonewings Twilight boyfriends enjoyed this little experiment. bit.ly/6pvqxw Girl at the end is freaking hilarious.
• 20:48 Baffled at how little information about illustration sales tax there is. I have the Guild book but I'm still confused. #ihatemathandtaxes

	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-01 22:17
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	Mood:	giddy

These Black Jewels FSTs are just gorgeous. I haven't finished the downloads, but the lyrics fit perfectly.

Twilight Rhapsody - five songs about Witch (scroll down)

These Castles and Dreams - Wilhelmina Benedict

Black Jewels Trilogy - fan soundtrack (zip not working, but the lyrics are still worth perusing.)

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	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-01 21:40
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	Mood:	grumpy

I was thinking thoughts about the media's treatment of celebrities--specifically female celebrities, prompted by the treatment of Megan Fox.

They at once expect and demand these celebrities to surrender private lives and display their desires, tastes, thoughts and opinions, and at the same time demand that these thoughts, tastes and opinions fall in line with the media's image of 'acceptable.' And I think we're all familiar with the media's image of acceptable--racism, sexism, ableism, heterosexism, the list goes on--so when Megan Fox shows that she's not only comfortable with her sexuality but not a demure/contained/controlled woman, they reject her. Spectacularly. And all those either threatened or sheeplike enough to follow do, and there's a huge percent of the population that is sheeplike in its adherence to 'the TV said so' or threatened by a sexy young woman who knows her own mind and is honest about it.

Whatever. She's awesome.

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	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-01 20:19
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	Mood:	drained

Kink Bingo's December challenge: ohhh, it is so good to me. Yuletide fandoms up for grabs!

...although, as I look through them, they are slightly less delicious than last round. Last round I was looking through the leftover prompts and I kept going 'ooh, I haven't thought of that one in ages but I sure could write it!' Still, plenty of yum.

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	User:	shiegra
	Date:	2009-12-01 18:44
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	Mood:	pissed off

Someone writes a whole huge essay titled The Lust Arc = IchiHime FAIL which, among other priceless gems of logic, claims that because soppy displays of concern were not made in the midst of a battleground, they TOTES DON'T CARE ABOUT EACH ENOUGH (FOR ME).

I'm not going to address the shipping, because I don't really 'ship in this series and I don't care. What I am going to address if the fact that because a young woman who made an enormously brave choice to sacrifice herself asked for help after an extended period of time where she was isolated, threatened, terrified and had her head fucked with, they explicitly equate her with evil cannibalistic spirits.

I cannot believe I ever even skim the surface of this fandom. I am also not capable of resounding-enough rude gestures over the internet. But it is, in my elegance and eloquence, all I have to offer, because I am still trying not to dissolve into obscenities over rage-inducing things.

I REALLY REALLY NEED SOMETHING LESS RAGE-INDUCING. SOMETHING. ANYTHING.

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	User:	beccastareyes
	Date:	2009-12-01 21:35
	Subject:	Holidays, with a dose of Writing Emo
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The period of time from November 1st until I go on my holiday break always stinks, with the exception of Thanksgiving. I had a lovely time, by the way. I visited my aunt, and we had 17 people for dinner (my aunt Maryjean, her husband, two sons and one grandson, my uncle Bobby, his girlfriend, one daughter, one son-in-law and two grandkids, my uncle Donny, his wife and their two daughters, and my uncle Jay. Plus me.*)

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