But...I never thought...you were dead! You'd been dead a while and I never thought I'd get to see you again. And then I showed up in this place. And you showed up but...I know this is stupid...but there were so many times I thought you were back. And you never were and I didn't want to go through that again here. I didn't want to believe it was you. Being a girl...it made it easier to let myself believe it wasn't...
And now...you're like I remember. And...yeah. I'm not making any sense.