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Tweak says, "What, and YOU'RE so smart?"

Mia Jesbar (miaj) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-02-07 01:03:00

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edward wong hau pepelu tivrusky iv, mia jesbar, qui-gon jinn, rahne sinclair, theresa rourke cassidy

Everyone I know is okay, right? Just recovering from the weekend? No one else has vanished?

There's been far too much happening lately. I swear, if one more kriffing thing happens... This place has to calm down for awhile. It's ridiculous. I'm ready to mutiny against whatever keeps doing this.

A couple hours of meditation did me good. Still tired. Hoping I can sleep tonight.

[private] I finally understand why I reached the end of my rope. In the last two weeks: I've been turned into a kid; had the urge to sing at everyone and tell Jamie how I feel; I lost the Force, fell, and broke my arm; had it healed by a goddess; Force came back; Brodin disappeared; and I went to Mexico with Jamie. Barely had time to breathe before they went to help Gambit. Then Apocalypse showed up. A lot of cities have taken damage, a lot of people have died, most of my friends and family have injuries of some kind, Jamie's been unconscious for a couple days. And now I'm having flashbacks and nightmares about the war and trouble sleeping. The meditation I did tonight should help with that.

[Master Qui-Gon] I honestly don't know how I managed before without meditation. I must've been a crazy person. Hey, meditation is supposed to help with nightmares too, right?

[Mom] Everyone's still okay, right? I'm pretty sure they are, I just feel like I should check in.

[Ed] I'm glad you stayed in the Bebop. Smart of you.

[Rahne, Terry] You two okay? Haven't seen much of you lately.

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	ex_sirynsong197 2008-02-07 08:42 am UTC (link)
	Hospital. Jimmyboy is with me. Can't talk...it's driving me mental. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	miaj 2008-02-07 08:45 am UTC (link)
	What? What happened? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_sirynsong197 2008-02-07 08:52 am UTC (link)
	My building...part of it collapsed and I was stuck under something...something cut my throat. I can't talk. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miaj 2008-02-07 09:01 am UTC (link)
	Terry... it'll heal, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_sirynsong197 2008-02-07 09:03 am UTC (link)
	The doctor said it'll take some time. Damn it! This is who I am! I can't not...I'm useless, Mia. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miaj 2008-02-07 09:09 am UTC (link)
	You're not useless. You're still Terry. I'm sorry. [Terry] Would one of those deities maybe heal it for you? They healed my broken arm after I fell when the Force disappeared, during that crazy week. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ex_sirynsong197 2008-02-07 09:11 am UTC (link)
	You're right, Mia. I just...it's hard. I feel like I'm missing part of me. [Mia] They might...but I don't know any of them. It feels selfish asking when there were people injured more seriously. Probably even killed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

miaj
2008-02-07 09:15 am UTC (link)

I understand. It's hard.

[Terry]
How long did the doctor say til it heals? And you could ask if anyone has any idea how to heal special vocal chords. I was healed by Ishtar, though God offered, and so did some magic users. Don't know what the gods did while Apocalypse was here, don't know if they're helping now, but... if they're all powerful it shouldn't be a problem, right?

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	ex_sirynsong197 2008-02-07 09:36 am UTC (link)
	Sorry if I snap at you. [Mia] He said if it was a normal person, I'd never talk again. My throat and my vocal chords are stronger than other people. And they heal faster, but it will take a while. At least a month or two. Maybe more. They have me on something that paralyses my vocal chords so that I don't aggravate my injury. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	miaj 2008-02-08 03:59 am UTC (link)
	Believe me, that's not snapping. [Terry] It sounds like you'll be fine. I'm glad. If you don't want to take the time to heal naturally, and there's people around who have the power to heal and they want to, there's no harm in asking. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	MiaMiaMia! chicken_bone 2008-02-07 03:51 pm UTC (link)
	♥! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	EdEdEd miaj 2008-02-08 04:08 am UTC (link)
	Are Link and Ein and the Bebop okay? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Mia hairysmurf 2008-02-07 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	Sleepin' it off in my room. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Rahne miaj 2008-02-08 04:09 am UTC (link)
	Glad you're all right. Just some cuts and bruises, I guess? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Mia hairysmurf 2008-02-08 04:36 am UTC (link)
	An' fractures an' breaks. But I heal quicker than most. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rahne miaj 2008-02-09 04:04 am UTC (link)
	How quick is quicker? My broken arm was supposed to take a month. You sure you're okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Mia hairysmurf 2008-02-09 04:34 am UTC (link)
	Aye. Shouldnae be much longer. Maybe another day. More f'the mental break, d'ye ken? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Rahne miaj 2008-02-09 04:43 am UTC (link)
	That is fast. I'm very aware I got off lucky this time. Do you need anything? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Mia hairysmurf 2008-02-09 04:45 am UTC (link)
	It's fast enough. I'm all right. Thankye, though. (Reply to this) (Parent)

Mia

onceaforceghost
2008-02-08 08:05 am UTC (link)

Yes, my child, meditation can help with nightmares, if you allow it to. Your subconscious must be willing to let go of the problems themselves in order for your episodes to stop. You have had so many events to deal with, they can pile up if you do not work through them properly.

Mediation will most definitely help.

You must relax, my dear. I know Jamie will soon be fine. You can allow yourself to let go of some of your tensions, and just be Mia. You do not have to be a superhero. You simply have to be you.

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Master Qui-Gon

miaj
2008-02-09 04:41 am UTC (link)

The problem is a lot of the stuff is from the war. You know the Vong war I told you about. I mean... joining a war when I was 16? I don't often think what that may've done to me in the long run but sometimes I know. Cause sometimes things like this trigger memories and I get nightmares again for awhile. So I'd have to meditate on 5 years of war.

It's already helped a lot. I don't know how I got along before without it.

I know he'll be okay too. It's hard, though, I'm used to being able to talk to him, y'know? I'm glad he's resting, but I miss him. Brodin's still vanished and Mugen took off and I just miss being able to talk to Jamie, I guess.

I... you... I didn't even... how did you put that into words? But everyone else around me is a superhero, isn't that what Jedi essentially are? I'll never forget how I used to see Jedi. They're amazing, and I'm really not. Maybe someday, when I'm better trained.

There's a lot to do right now. How can I let that go and just be me? Because this is me. What I'm doing. I'm trying to help out at the shelters a bit, and there's still things to do around X-Factor, even more so because some of us got hurt.

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