Rose
This is how I choose to deal with my problems. I can't shut the world out. You think she's the only one who get to hurt because she's lost more? Look, this is me admitting that she's definitely lost more. But she is not the only one hurting, and belittling my pain is not going to make it better. I spent two weeks putting this off, and I'll be damned if I hold back for any more time.
I doubt she'll read this anyway, so you're the only one who's pissed at me, and given our complete lack of a relationship prior to this, I don't give a rat's ass.