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Tweak says, "ARRRRRR!"

Kimber Benton (rockstarkimber) wrote in undertherainbow,
@ 2008-10-22 19:18:00

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jerrica benton, kimber benton

I really need to talk to you.

I ran into Ollie the other night while I was Lynx, and I suddenly feel really horrible about not telling him. How did you deal with keeping Jem secret from Rio?

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	glitterngold 2008-10-24 06:47 pm UTC (link)
	Not very well, to be honest. I'm not really sure why I didn't tell him in the first place, but after a while the only reason I didn't tell him was because I was afraid of how he would hate me for not telling him before. For not trusting him. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rockstarkimber 2008-10-24 10:37 pm UTC (link)
	I'm worried it's getting that far with Ollie. That I'm digging myself in so deep that I'm afraid to climb out. But I don't know! It's so hard, Jerrica. He doesn't keep his a secret. I don't know if he would understand why I have to keep mine. Well, I'm sure he would, but. I don't know, I don't know. I need to tell him. Just. Why is this so hard? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

glitterngold
2008-10-25 10:32 am UTC (link)

The best advise I really can give you is that you should tell him. It gets so much harder when you realize you can't tell him because you're afraid he'll be upset that you've been hiding it. I'm sure he'll understand, with villains all over the boards, why you keep it secret. It's hard, even though it hasn't been as long, still the idea you didn't tell him and he'll think you don't trust him, but I think he'd understand.

I really messed up by not telling Rio. It put something between us, this big thing that I could never talk about, and it sucked.

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rockstarkimber
2008-10-25 11:09 am UTC (link)

Yeah. I don't know. I'm just. I guess part of me isn't really sure, yet. You and Rio were always this forever-thing. Everybody knew you were going to be togeth.. Um. Sorry.

I just mean. Ollie's a good guy, right? Even if we broke up he wouldn't go and tell everybody. That's just stupid. But. I don't know. I feel like it's such a big deal. I can't just tell every guy I date. You remember how many guys I dated back home? It has to be special.

...And now I feel like I'm talking about something that isn't my superhero secret. Please ignore me.

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	glitterngold 2008-10-25 11:17 am UTC (link)
	The fact that you're thinking of telling him makes me think it's a little more than just a guy you're dating. Even if it's not a forever thing, it seems like it's something special. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	rockstarkimber 2008-10-25 11:28 am UTC (link)
	That's true, I guess. But I don't know what he thinks. He's... dated a lot of girls, I think. I don't know how serious it is for him. (Reply to this) (Parent)