Travel by Postcards

Dear Benny,

They told me you came back to this old job. New place, same situation. I don't know why you're here but here I am too.

I can't use phones, they still make me itchy. Hell everything makes me itchy these days, I'm almost agoraphobic, anthropophobic, and what other weird fears I didn't have before, but I wanted you to know that I am sorry how I left things between us and and...

You're the best friend a man could have and leaving you really killed me. I'm here for a short time as I can't seem to lay down roots anymore and now at my old age, I find myself wandering.

Maybe Garret had known something.

I do realize you might've been right about this "not being me" whole thing. I have money now but hasn't done me much good in the end. The thing is, I still need a partner.

And even though, you being a Mountie means so much to you. I still need you.

I think you might need me too.

Or was I wrong? I really need to know because I can't stay anywhere anymore and I won't can't go without you.

I'll be waiting across the street at noon.

Waiting and watching for your answer.

Always Yours,
Ray

ps. Did you think I left out autophobic, I did not. I made choices a few years ago that has created the possibility of being alone today, but I'm also choosing to tell you that I don't want that anymore. Just wanted you to know.

Ray's postcard is set during au post series. It's carefully placed in the inbox of one Benton Fraser, Deputy Liaison Officer.