darththalia (darththalia) wrote in tpm_flashback, @ 2005-03-08 19:50:00 |
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Original poster: emila_wan
Title: Batter My Heart
Author: Jedi Rita
Rating: R
Pairing: Obi-Wan/Bail
Warnings: Strong angst (as if THAT needs a warning! *G*)
Author's e-mail: jedirita@yahoo.com
Link to story: http://www.wyomingnot.com/rita/batter/0
The whole series is here - http://www.wyomingnot.com/rita/ - and it starts with "Perhaps," but Batter My Heart can be read alone.
Summary: Ten years after beginning his exile on Tatooine, Obi-Wan visits Bail and Leia on
Alderaan and deals with his inner demons.
Reasons for recommending: This one is long, but definitely worth the time. And oh, the
heartbreak! Obi-Wan Kenobi is a tragic figure, and never moreso than in this series. Although this is the
final story, it was the first of the series I read (I think it was the first she wrote) and it remains my
favorite. The writing is superb, detailed and sensual. But the most compelling thing about the story is the
utter *reality* of it. Ten years after Anakin's turn, Obi-Wan is nearly destroyed by everything that's
happened to him, and his reunion with a lover he's not seen in years reflects that. The sex is understated,
but real, as are the emotions. Here are two people who love each other, who desperately want to connect, but it's not all sweetness and light. Sometimes happy endings are not possible, no matter how much one might wish it. Watching two noble characters struggle to accept that they can never have a normal life together is heart-wrenching. This is not a canned, happily-ever-after tale. Yet in the end, I think the
reader will be satisfied. I know I was!
Another aspect of the story that I found charming was the portrayal of young Leia. She is precocious, but
not annoying, and she is definitely necessary to the story. Her hero-worship of Obi-Wan only exacerbates
the Jedi's own torn self-image. And when she accuses him of not loving Bail, Obi-Wan's loss of control
leads to a catharsis of sorts. It is Leia's forgiveness of a small thing that allows Obi-Wan to begin to forgive himself for bringing about the destruction of the Republic.
All in all, an extremely well done story. Set aside a chunk of time and a box of tissues for this one.
Quote from story:
It had taken him three years to save up the money for this trip, and he still wasn't sure if it had been a
good idea. He didn't really know why he was here. To check in on the state of the galaxy? To learn what the
Emperor was up to? To follow up on the child's progress? To see Bail? Even all these reasons together could not justify the risk he was taking. He had a responsibility to remain in hiding, to protect the boy, to safeguard if not his own life, then the knowledge he carried as one of the last of the Jedi. He could not risk capture. So he had kept telling himself for the past three years, but in the end he could not deny the urge to get off world, to visit the one person in the entire galaxy whom he could trust not to betray him, the only person in the galaxy who might actually be pleased to see him.