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Title: The "Colours" Series
Author: MonaR (aka Mona Ramsey, aka Mona)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Qui/Obi
Warnings: Dark! Angsty! Messed-Up!Qui/Will-Do-Anything!Obi. Each piece is short but packs one heck of a punch. Includes references to not-for-pleasure beatings, trying-to-be-consensual sex, rough sex between padawans (read: minors), sex exchanged for credits (whoring), not-completely-consensual-but-not-noncon threesomes... I mean, the list goes on and on. Self-branding/scarring ("Purple"). Character death ("Black") and, um, uh... it doesn't get quite as far as necrophilia, but boy is it close ("White").

















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Author's e-mail, web site and/or LJ id: No website or LJ that I know of -- please correct me if I'm mistaken. Email's listed on the story pages.
Link to story: There are nine stories in the "Colours" series:

Blue: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/b/blue__1.html
Red: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/r/red.html
Green: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/g/green.html
Yellow: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/y/yellow.html
Purple: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/p/purple.html
Orange: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/o/orange.html
Indigo: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/i/indigo.html
Black: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/b/black.html
White: http://www.masterapprentice.org/archive/w/white.html

Reasons for recommending: There is angst in TPM and then there is uber-angst. This is a very angsty series, well-written, and I love the way the color of each chapter is reflected in the story itself. The author's unapologetic for having no beta; personally, I think she could've used one as there are bits and pieces where there's some excess text that could be trimmed. But every piece is a neat, sharp bite of excellent Qui/Obi angst, in that genre of "it's requited love, but maybe they'd both be better off it it weren't." I also like the fact that this series does not leave me with a victim!Obi aftertaste. Particular favorites in the series include Green and Purple.

Quote from story: From Red: What I hadn't anticipated, and should have, was that eventually my body would come to equate this pain I inflicted upon it with the pleasure I was trying to erase. The first time I came without touching myself, the braided leather strap still in my hands as the front of my thin trousers stained with my own seed, I wept myself dry. It was my lowest ebb, and the first time I seriously considered taking my own life.

















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More: The series starts with Obi-Wan going out at Qui-Gon's request to seek sexual pleasure from strangers. We find out that Qui-Gon has been hurting himself (beating himself with a braided leather strap) as a way of self-punishment for wanting Obi-Wan, and that the ritual is one he designed to keep himself from actually going after him. The rituals don't work for long. Eventually, the two of them get more and more tangled until openly manipulating and hurting themselves and each other is the only way to deal with how strong their feelings for each other are.