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I have had a very weird day. Huh. Some bad, some good, all weird.

Anyway. I haven't gotten all of my cleaning done yet but I've made a ginormous dent in it, so that's the main thing.

How fascinating! You know, in the sense of 'not', but OH WELL. Now I have to eat something before I fall over, unload all the feed I bought yesterday and then I decree it to be Fire Time. Excellent!

Also: I love that icon.

Great scott! The amount of ornamental trees that perished last night is frighteningly impressive. Five on our street and at least seven on the main boulevard leading out of the neighbourhood, though with the landscaping disaster of last night, boulevard may no longer apply. Limbs shed everywhere, and a bit of coastal flooding. Go nature!

Last day of lab prep for the weekend tours. All I can say is that they best keep the caffeine hat and in good supply if they want me to be charming. Oh dear god, the same lame and stale jokes again... and all I can think is that the horrible 'location, location, location,' lame joke might not go over so well in today's dreary real estate market world. Though I doubt the curator will have the sense to drop it from his canned tour speech.

In happier news, the weather was delightful today, so much so that I went to the pool after work. The water was refreshing and not like bathwater. Whoo-hoo. And! *happy dance* my small circular knitting needles came in. I hope to get some knitting in this weekend in between tours. Or stab the curator with them when his jokes move me to violence.

Other news, not so much to report. Still working on not oversleeping in the mornings. Now that the heat's broken, that might happen.

Good: a situation that has been stressing me out severely for months has, over the last couple of weeks, been resolved.

Bad: that resolution has been so hugely, incredibly unpleasant that it's going to take a looooong while to get over. Bah. You can't have everything, I guess.

Also bad but far more trivial: I forgot to record Flight of the Conchords AND the German GP last Sunday night. GRRRRRR. CRANKY.

Both good and bad: my parents are finally visiting on Saturday. Eh. Last time they were suppose to come my mother got sick. This means that tomorrow is Full On Cleaning Day. I'm lucky in that my house has enough rooms that I can do a lot of shoving stuff places and slamming the door but eh, there's only so much that takes care of. I hate cleaning. Meh. Plus I have... issues, shall we say, regarding my mother and housework, so, yeah. Not fun.

Extremely good: I went to the library today! The library never fails to be exciting, IMHO. I don't use my local library because hi, IT SUCKS, but the one in Closest Small City, which is freaking awesome. Best thing? You can borrow FIFTY BOOKS at a time. Seriously, FIFTY. Only seven DVDs or CDs, though but who cares? FIFTY BOOKS! I love it. Love. It.

Also good: Ghost Whisperer is back on tonight. Shut up! My love for that show is truly pathetic but I do not care. J Lo Hew! With her bizarre fashion choices and excessive use of false eyelashes! It's fabulous.

Finding envelopes can't be that hard, can it?

I know the obvious answer is probably "the post office," which I'm sure isn't open... but where the hell do you find envelopes? I thought they might be at Office Depot, but that had to be closed, too.

o.k. so of the most compatible matches that I have on okcupid, the majority of them are bi. Which is interesting. I do like bi women, I find them very attractive. They have a different sort of confidence and knowing that straight women don't have. They don't seem to be desperately trying to prove their femininity, for example. I had to say to myself, well, I do like bi women, so it's not surprising. But interesting, and it's a good sign that okcupid's matching system maybe does work. So now I have fantasies of a bi female couple wanting me to join their relationship.


The other, more mysterious phenomenon, is that the people who look at my profile are all people who have very low compatibility with me. In the 40s and lower 50 percentages. Women who smoke, are devout Christians, yukki stuff. I barely even have any idea why they would be looking at my profile. Perhaps they just aren't compatible with anyone! I mean, I get women up into the lower 80s (usually bi) when I look at my matches. But maybe 45% is actually a high compatibility rating for some of those creatures. None of them have tried to contact me.

Serious severe weather here. Sporadic net connection.

Will post as I am able, and hope that the skies clear ere long.

*consoles self with DVDs*

I just realised that I have NO prompt tables or challenge claims over here on IJ and decided that must be rectified STAT. So, here is my table for 25moments.

( let me go easy )

Hey thar.

I just got a whole bunch of grad monehs.

So congrats to my randomly selected winner of a paid account gift: tracichan I will keep doing that at random upon getting a job.

I'm feeling... tired.

I went to IKEA today and bought a whole mess of new bedroom furniture. It's pretty great. I can't wait for it to get here tomorrow.

MY MEDS ARE FUCKING WITH MY BRAINS.

EDIT: I'm creating a website. Anyone good with HTML wanna help meh out?

Stolen from aristoboule
*squeeeeing over the pretty piccies!!*

Your result for The Attachment Style Test...

The Exile

51% Anxiety Over Abandonment and 65% Avoidance Of Intimacy

Take The Attachment Style Test at HelloQuizzy

Dennis Waterman singing Karma Chameleon = Win.

Awesome news: the fabulous Kathleen Munroe (possibly best known to fandom as the creepy little monster girl's mother in the Supernatural ep The Kids Are Alright) has been cast in a recurring role as Flack's little sister on CSI: NY. Smashing!

Also: a coming apocalypse *has* been briefly mentioned on Millennium and Sarah Jane Redmond finally did show up and while she isn't the devil, she is plenty EEEEEEVIL, yay. And her name is Lucy. Yeah, SUBTLE. So, apparently my misconceptions weren't as 'mis' as I thought.

( My very bad day )

Please to be turning the muggy dial down.

Thank you.


No, really. I am melting. It's 32.8 and hazy as hell right now [that's 91F and hazy as hell] and looks like we'll be topping 36 [or 97F] by the late afternoon.

Just finished up the Monday morning errands, which is a rant in itself. I swear, this having Mon and Tues off really cheats me out of a proper weekend, but it's almost over for another year. Now to finish brunch and start my day whilst the house is quiet. Right now, it's just me, the dog, and the cat. The boys are off getting our Triss who did a Combat Life Saving Class this weekend. I have the feeling that I will be morbidly fascinated by the training manual when he brings it home. It's an odd thing, I'm really good at administering first aid and things of that nature. I keep my cool and a moderately calm head on my shoulders until more qualified help arrives. Then I go to a corner and get sick.

Right. Food, iced tea, and play. Coming up.

Tattoo # 37

Before: 






( The After... )

I got it Saturday night. These Sunday morning pictures. The arm is red and swollen and not real happy with me at the moment. I've been waiting for this tattoo at least six months so am totally geeked out over it. It hurts to interpret but nothing I can't handle.

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Had a fucking awesome weekend with Ashley. It included the following:

Old Gene Kelly / Judy Garland movie
Car washing
Bike riding
Tattoo
Drinks at favorite hang out
Sleeping in
Massive amounts of laundry
Lunch on Vashon with her parents

Our cable is cut off as of today. I figured out a way to actually get pretty good internet off of neighbors. Strong enough signal to play WoW so that makes me extremely happy. I upped our netflix from three to five so that we have enough stuff to watch to keep us entertained. I have to get all of the cable equipment together and drive it to the Comcast office. I'll probably do that sometime this week. 

The money situation seems to have finally gotten itself righted. I'm only behind on one bill but that will be taken care of tomorrow as it is my payday. I've warned Ashley that school will be out in a few weeks so there won't be a check coming from them during the entire month of September. To offset this I'll be taking on some extra shifts at vrs. I want to mainly do night shifts so that I can be home during the day. I hate working vrs during the day cause it's so damn busy and I get irritated so easily. I will only be able to work 29 hrs / week even with the hours cap raised to 33 because of L & I but 18 hours per paycheck should keep us in line until the school checks start coming in mid-October.

I'm pretty exhausted for a Monday. 

I'll go to Starbucks like normal and then try and put the laundry away.

/boring catch-up

My favourite pants had acquired a hole in the ass :( I hate mending clothes, and this one is even not mendable, because the cloth is so worn out, it would tear again the next day. Well, it had been a few years, time to buy another... all my other pants are jeans, too hot for the kind of summer we have here. Too lazy to go to the store (those were pants with a lot of pockets and zippers! I want the same kind, you can't buy it in any stupid small store ;) so meanwhile dug out white elegant summer pants, a present from my mother who hadn't quite lost hope to improve my dressing style. Tried to wear them for a few days - and surprisingly, it sucks!!

I felt fragile and vulnerable, and it's kind of funny and disturbing how the clothes can so much affect your self-image (I'm pretty sure that nobody whatsoever cares how I'm dressed, so the only problem is my self-confidence, this is bad...) There are also practical reasons, such as my recent habit to write in an offline diary once in a while - the most comfortable place for that is outside, sitting on the ground, but grass and rocks would be disastrous for white clothes. So I had to do with a bench, feeling both unsafe and also like some silly, sentimental and romantic XVIII century maiden (hah, not too far off, seeing from that diary :)

Today decided that the weather can go to hell, and put on the jeans (the oldest and ugliest ones on purpose, they're torn too, but on the knee it's publically acceptable), and feel myself again :)

I'm sorry. I have not forgotten that this exists. It's just that it feels a bit lonely in here. And since the people I know on here have LJs, I usually just post to LJ anyway. (For the record, my lj username is rubashov.)

Some mundane things which I'm sort of happy about:

1. I got a new phone and it has a decent camera. At night, I dream of fantastical landscapes that I've never seen before in real life, and what amuses me a great deal is that I keep wanting to take photos of those landscapes with that phone. 日有所思，夜有所梦, hohoho.

2. Sometimes I help my dad do some mundane things at my aunt's stall (which is closing in August). I have to lug around bags of groceries, and what with security people at the subway (and my fondness for cargo green clothes), I keep fantasizing that I'm going to be stopped for a search, at which point I'll reply (it would never work out in real life if I want my neck intact), "Actually, I'm just delivering food supplies to my non-revolutionary bourgeoisie capitalist aunt's."

3. Kungfu Panda was a great movie. Okay, not great. But it was enjoyable when it came to cinematography.
I also watched a couple of anime. Higurashi no naku koro ni (When the cicadas cry) was particularly engaging, and I also watched Girl's High. It was cute. But now I can't watch any other anime without being incredibly bored, because Higurashi was just that good.

4. I've taken up an interest in military strategies. It's probably nothing great, but damn, it's a good excuse to play Red Alert in isometric. For some reason, I can't bring myself to play the games that have nothing to do with actual history, so the rest of C&C First Decade DVD is pretty much lost on me anyway. I just bought it for the soviets, tbqh.

5. I just got a haircut, and as usual it looks like meloncat. I blame my genes for the thick hair. I would rather be a balding old man!

6. I came to conclusions about transcendental idealism based on pretty much Husserlian philosophy and Natural Attitude. Interiority of thought exists, but on another plane that is not separate from the material world. Ultimate Reality is a false construct of philosophy. Basically. I can't imagine love as anything but a platonic ideal; if it doesn't last, then it never existed. Everything is still rooted in materialism, but this inherent sense of transcendance cannot be denied (especially in mathematics).

7. I got tired of arguing with Stalinists and just want to discuss theory with other ... less absolutist people. :| lol, I even argued with a Stalinist who said, "Don't lecture me on the history of my own country." I was like, "Orly?" Yeah, yeah, I try not to be an ignorant foreigner. But I draw the line at whereever I deem reasonable. (Do unto others, something something - Confucious)
Admittedly, it's not that many. There's just something about Stalinism that I find inherently distasteful (while it's not as bad as the west claims, I'll grant this).

8. I have an L pendant on a chain! I now wear it around.

9. I've made it through 2 more chapters of How It All Began and was terribly amused by the fact that Bukharin has a SWEET TOOTH. Seriously, the parallels between Rubashov from Darkness At Noon and Bukharin, in terms of personality, are just very uncanny. I was also creeped out at how, despite having not finished either book, I associated the two in my mind so strongly. I'd like to think that this isn't confirmation bias, but the more I read of the two books, the more similarities I find...
Anyway, why was I amused by the fact that he has a sweet tooth? Because, toffees. tarawriter sent me some caramel thingy (Werner's?). Next time when I eat it, I'll eat it with young Kolya in mind ;)

10. After talking with a friend, I sort of gained some sense of short-term goals and direction. Besides a vague sense of "I must graduate and be a corporate peon working with nothing to do with my major", or "I must somehow get into graduate studies even though it's impossible financially or even logically."

11. I just scrolled back 120 entries on the f-list. WHERE ARE THE PEOPLE :(((((

12. School is starting come August. :(

13. I has new laptop! One that doesn't take 20 minutes to start up! YAY. On the down side, I've signed up with the devil of an internet service provider to get this laptop, woe is me.

I've been m.i.a. from LJ and IJ for a couple weeks. Sorry about that, I'll probably come back now. I've been developing my personal ad at okcupid. I saw that site a couple years ago and must not have thought much of it, cause I immediately lost interest. But when I went back recently I was really impressed by it. It's free, and I really like the question system they have there. Makes other personal sites look like crap. Here's my ad:

http://www.okcupid.com/profile?u=5iggy

I've been depressed. Yesterday was horrible. I had my daughter home for once and she was washing clothes. Her BF was out of town for a funeral and we were going to do something later last night. However, he came back from the funeral early and I was left with the man.

He and I ended up going on a moonlight drive for two hours. I wish I would have went alone but I knew that wasn't going to happen at all. I never get privacy anymore.

( just more complaining.... )