Broken Dreams (crshed__angel) wrote in the_guardian, @ 2005-03-28 13:36:00 |
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Current mood: | worried |
Current music: | Crash And Burn~Savage Garden |
HIghly Unamused
You can never take the guardain out of the soul, you can take the soul out of the body but it does not mean you take the heart of a guardian away.... Even when one doesn't call one else a guardian you still are, its more then just the words utters to protect that of the soul. Its that of a lifetime you give up for those who need you. TO be walked on, hated, loved, used and abused for the greater of something within someone. Sometimes you get a smile. That can mean more then anything, just ath smile that touches your heart as your words are softly driven home, that your life as bent and as broken as the world around you may seem there is something you are worth and its not your weight in gold. its the blood you shead for the others in this race and for the feelings you feel and believe in behind people's lives.
Several times i have tried to remove myself from the guardainship, and i have tried just to make it all go away. Much like JOhn in Knight of the word... He tries just to forget what he is, just to live out in a normal existance, but he can't. Things come for him, endanger him, and the one thing he cares about most, Nest.. Well i dont have the one thing i care about most in my life, i would risk alot just for about anyone. My blood is my othe, my words are that of what i show to the world. YOu don't like my words then don't ask me for them, you don't like me, then don't ask me for the blood of my blade, i can not honestly fight what i do not want to protect...
I can not hold a grudge, nor can i hold a blade up for anyone i do not see worthy of it. You dishonor that of your own vows why should i save you, if you repent.. then all means my sword will come down. But do not and the blade is at your own hand. I am a warrior, a blood that has spilt to many of that on times, and i fight with every breath i have within me. I will work and guard and love, you can't accept that then don't be a guardain..
Its not glory road..There is no such thing.. its work, its pain and its heartache that no one should have to endure but learn as soon as you take on this path there is no going back its like standing on a bridge and the bridge is crumbling behind you. Do you jump back to where you were and look listfully on to the other side or do you run making it across and know there is no going back.. I choose to run..
So come the silent of the walls.. TEll me what does it mean to be a guradian to you?
The Lady