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December 28th, 2015

[info]loveishope in [info]the100

I suppose its funny really.

I've been lied to so often by so many people, I'm not altogether sure what to do with honesty from all corners.

...some of it is pretty telling

[info]nosuitnoservice in [info]the100


Is anyone else feeling weirdly honest?

[info]zeroeightfour in [info]the100

So Lincoln's basically adorable when he wakes up in the morning and even though the bedhead is so cute there's this moment, right? There's this moment where the morning breath could be worse. But then I realize it's probably actually my morning breath so I try to stay cool before I sprint into the bathroom and yeah, basically it's me. I rock so hard.

And then, like. Here I am and the surveillance feeds are pretty quiet so the outside of Mount Weather is almost pretty and I always wanted to know why Rosemary Clooney insisted on washing her hair with snow in White Christmas. That is such a really weird reaction to being desperate for a little snow.


[info]septimussmith in [info]the100

It wasn't until I actually lived with people who can see the dead and are, moreover, really okay about it that I wanted to tell you I almost got put in the hospital for talking to my dead CO. I loved him. I love him still. He died saving me and I miss him every time I hear Clair de Lune. He would hate that.

And, you know, I'm very sure and very aware of the cliche nature of what I just imparted.

Lydia Martin is very pretty.

[info]drinkwithme in [info]the100

Who: Enjolras and Grantaire
When: December 28th
Where: In their room
What: What happens when feelings are hidden, and then magic makes you say everything in your head
Rating: A for adorableness
Status: Complete on Posting

This was it, the point of no return. )

[info]havefun in [info]the100

Anytime some egghead wants to solve this honesty madness all on his or her own is fine with me. I've managed not to come clean about Evie and I belonging to a secret society of Assassins sworn to defend freedom from the Templars with our lives, and I don't much fancy doing so now.

[ Edited to add ] Shite.

[info]okaybye in [info]the100

Am I the only one that's not being overly affected by this? I mean, I don't really lie. And, I say most of what's in my head anyway. Other than when I avoid saying things like how Rumpelstiltskin really isn't a very nice person a lot. Because I know Belle loves him. And, he's Henry's Grandfather and it's not nice to insult your friends husbands a lot. And, I'm not entirely certain that that will change without the darkness in him. I mean, 300 years of darkness has to have it's toll, doesn't it?

And, oh. This really has gotten away from me, hasn't it? I really didn't mean to say that much. I miss Kristoff. He probably would have pointed out that it's time for me to stop talking now. And, he would have been my husband. If I hadn't come here when I did. Minutes, just minutes later and we would have been married. And, well okay. So, I would still miss him. But, I delayed the wedding enough as it is. I feel bad.

And, actually I think I'm going to stop typing now. Because this really is getting out of hand. Not that that's too much different to normal.

[info]durinson in [info]the100

This is all very unsettling, is it not? I have not experienced anything like this before. Which now I am grateful for it. I've always valued truth, but it's foolish to think there are no secrets between people, friends or family. Where would I be had I been truthful about my fear of ruling? I believe there may be some truths that are better left unsaid.

[info]x_facility in [info]the100

Maybe I will go out again until you all go back to normal. I don't like this.

[info]dosex in [info]the100

[VOICE-TO-TEXT - Unfiltered]

Day Seven of the Rat Trials, Bloodborne edt. is going well. We're at the stage where I should see progress any day now. The rats are still doing well, healthy and whole, and I hope I'm given enough time to create a cure and vaccine for Alfred.

Everyone is having truth issues, and while I'm feeling more honest than usual, there isn't anything in particular I need to hide so I'm not overly worried. Except that I miss video games. And Star Wars. I bet it was amazing, not shite like those prequels that are a travesty to the name.

But it's easier focusing on work, here. Recovery, trials, my rat friends. I still haven't even begun to progress like I'd hoped on the Zombie Rat trials. Without tainted utopium, I'm not sure of where to start. If I didn't throw myself into some sort of project I'd spend all day worrying about Liv and not being able to cure her. I've got to figure something out, for her sake. For my own sake. What am I, if not someone who give her a life back? Major does a much better job of making her feel things, and I'm already torn between wishing for the best for them and being stupidly jealous.

May the Force Be With You, Doctor Chakrabarti. You're going to need it.

[info]lordofthepies in [info]the100

network post: ned

I killed a man. His name was Marty.

No, let's back up. I mean, I didn't kill him. But I did make him alive again and then make him dead again, because he was dead when he fell on me and then he was alive and now he's not.

Because that's what I do. I touch dead things and they come back to life. I don't know why, I don't know how, I don't know why me, but that's how it is.

And that's why the pie's so good. I used rotting fruit and brought it back to life, and alive-again fruit tastes better. That's what I've heard. I can't eat it, because if I do it goes back to rotting in my mouth, which is why I say I'm allergic to Chuck.

[info]ofthemany in [info]the100

netpost; spock

I don't mind Jim's need for public affection as much as I should. I am concerned that makes me more human than Vulcan. And that my father would be disappointed in that.

And I miss Vulcan. I do not understand why it needed to be destroyed. Logically, it was inevitable. But these emotions are... foreign to me.

And my moth I should very much like to return to the Enterprise now.

[info]whatwedid in [info]the100

I love Clarke. There. I said it. I've never said that about someone before.

I thought saying it was supposed to feel better than this, but I just feel like an idiot.

[info]thewaywardson in [info]the100

network; dean winchester (027)

This truth thing is crap. I skipped work to keep myself from babbling at people all damn day. I got on the network to check on everyone else and I can't stop myself.

I fucking miss women. I've slept with three men since I got here. I was trying to move in on Carol Danvers months ago, before Cap beat me to it. It's not that I don't like Cas, because I do. God damn it, do I like Cas. I have a hard time admitting it because I'm emotionally stunted and my first instinct is to lie about my feelings. I still call myself straight, and I know that's fucked up.

I lie about a lot. I don't think that would surprise anybody close to me, but I lie to Sam all the damn time. I know there are things we don't tell each other, and I'm fine with most of that, I don't really need to know about his sex life or what he thinks about Star Trek, but I feel like lying to protect him is my job, the way you lie to kids. I still think of him as twelve. I feel responsible when he makes mistakes or get into touble. I know damn well I shouldn't, he's a grown-ass man who can make his own choices, but I project like it's going out of style. He got all the good parts of our Dad and I just got the shitty decisions and the drinking. If I act like Sam needs me to watch him, I can pretend that's not true.

( content warning for discussion of rape in the dean/kate conversation )

[info]thecat in [info]the100

network; felicia hardy (018)

If you're missing something out of your pockets (or that might fit in my pockets), I probably stole it. I'm not sorry, mostly.

If you're missing stuff, now is when you should ask to have it back.

[info]supermax in [info]the100

network; max caulfield (002)

I'm still not totally convinced this is real, but I really want it to be real. I saw Buffy in the hall the other day.

I also want it to be real so I don't have to think about other stuff, but so far just nerding out isn't actually solving any of my problems. I'm paranoid of talking to people because I feel bad for lying to them, especially when I'm around a bunch of people with powers or weird lives that I know about because they're fake where I come from. I can rewind time. Only a few minutes at a time right now, but I can just undo anything that happens and no one would know any better. The more I think about it the more I realize how hard it is to trust me, and that upsets me, because I've always thought of myself as trustworthy. I worry that I'm not a very good person.

[info]everymansdream in [info]the100

TW for mention of attempted suicide )

[info]trishtalk in [info]the100

» Don't go near the network.
» It's a confession board right now, and I think that's the last thing you need.
» Even if I still think you should talk to a therapist.

[info]pep in [info]the100

[Chatty to Trish Walker]
Are you okay? I'm a little worried.

[Chatty to Tony Stark]
We don't have any secrets, do we? We're not about to go all confession-mode on the network, right?

[Chatty to Phil]
If you need someone to talk, please talk to me. I would rather your secrets stay secret. Stay off the public forums.

[info]rosered in [info]the100

Boy Blue was right. I always date whoever adds excitement to my life, not the person who actually deserves my love like he did. He couldn't fix me. I don't think anyone can. I hurt him so badly. I knew he was in love with me, but I didn't do anything about it. I was too afraid to let myself be in love with someone who would actually treat me right because I'm convinced that I don't deserve it.

I miss him every day. Every single minute.

[info]willgrahams in [info]the100

The melodrama is extremely irritating. Think of the children and keep it to yourself.

[info]godofstories in [info]the100

If nothing else, I feel like I know everyone in Mount Weather much better now!

Whatever is catching, it missed me. Anyone else not feeling compelled to start singing their grievances in public spaces? Yes? No?

[info]myownmind in [info]the100

Tell me he's wrong.

Please tell me that you don't want her back, that you never want that.

Tell me that I matter.

Please just tell me that it's me you want and you only ever want me. I know she was important to you, I know you loved her but please, Grant. I need you to tell me you don't any more. That you're not going to leave me, ever. Please I need you to tell me now because I can't handle it and I'm sorry, I know you can't say it normally but I need to know. I need to know you love me, if you say it now I know it's true and at least then I'll know, even if you never say it again at least you'll have said it once and I'll know once and for all that it's me who you love, that I'm the one you think about.

I need to know because I can't take not knowing, I can't take that hanging over my head, especially not now.

[info]fearlesslamb in [info]the100

My secret's really not as big as some of what the others around here have been suddenly sharing, but it's mine and I didn't really want to announce it. Looks like whatever is happening has a different idea.

I can turn into a coyote, and I was raised by werewolves.

I also bake when I get nervous or upset. So, there's that.

[info]doctorfun in [info]the100

This isn't good. I've been especially rude today, which is saying quite a lot since I am already... very, very rude. So rude I've not said I've got a TARDIS. Did mean to tell you. Meaning me. All of the mes. And my friends. So, by the by: she's fixed. Well. Not fixed-fixed. She's sort of fixed. Open for living. Have you all got your keys? Time to move in. If you want. She's meant for that, you know. Having loads of people on board.

Difficult to stop the talking once you've got yourself going, too many thoughts requiring expelling. Funny kind of... tickling sensation on the brain, isn't it? Talktalktalktalk. Who's managed to do this? Truth hazes don't happen out of the blue. Got to stop, but I'm never keen on slowing down my gob. Anyway. Things to tinker with, a TARDIS to repair now that she's fully grown, truths to avoid spouting, that sort of thing.