|alfred, the executioner (thegoodblood) wrote in the100,|
@ 2016-05-11 12:44:00
|Entry tags:||alfred, evie frye, ezio auditore, georgina kincaid, isaac lahey|
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This is intolerable. The pain was one thing, but the compulsions to violence... Henryk had six decades. Six. And yet I have not yet seen my thirtieth birthday. ...self-pity benefits nothing, you know that Alfred, and yet they said - they had it written in blood - that we Executioners would be forgiven, that our bodies would be spared, that due to our holy works that the beast plague could not - WOULD NOT - strike against us. I was not meant to die like this; it was to be in the service of Logarius - Logarius. I thought him near to a God at one point, and he was fastened unto the Vileblood Queen's apron at every note of her siren song. Gods, I'd rather die than fall that low, if I saw him now I'd spit in his face, I'd tear him apart, I'd rip hi
Prayer's no use. Evie knows. I've tried to stay pleasant, but I see her watching. I see them all watching. Waiting for the end. They'll know before I do, I wager. What was it Gascoigne used to say? "Beasts, beasts all over the shoppe. We'll all be one, sooner or later."
Simplicity. Calm. If I can't find serenity in prayer I shall force it in other ways. No Fight Club - obviously. Perhaps I can ask Lady Carter for an alternative focus to work. Or simple time away.
If I had known I would have had so little time I
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I am sorry to bother you, and I know how busy we are in preparation for the settlements. But if you could grant me an alternative place to work away from the fire in the toolmaker's ward, I would be grateful. I also might need to request some time off depending upon how I'm feeling. I would not ask for such a selfish exception if I did not believe it to be a necessity. I promise to make up my absence in full when all's well again.
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Say what you will about the post-apocalyptic landscape, but the flowers are lovely!