🤘 Sylvie 🤘 (laufeydottir) wrote in the100, @ 2016-05-10 10:37:00 |
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Without Jess here, I'm finding this a lot harder than it was the last time. She gives me strength, a lot more than I give her credit for. Without her here, I worry that I'll have no reason to stay sober.
Another significant problem is my Storybrooke history itself. I was married with children, and my husband had an affair. Now, here in Mount Weather, in my right mind — I still have those memories and the memories of those feelings. I don't speak to the man who was my husband anymore. I would have said we were flirty before, but now I rarely talk to him. I think sometimes that I ought to try, but then I see him and the woman he had an affair with talking a lot on the network, making light of the affair and flirting.
I am... torn. By all rights, he is an available man who can do whatever he wants, but I suppose I thought he might have enough care for me or that life not to make it a joke. It didn't feel like one to me there, and honestly, it still doesn't here.
In a way, I'm glad Jessica's not here. He'd end up punched through a wall if I told her any of this.