Chewie (bigwalkincarpet) wrote in the100, @ 2016-04-29 11:27:00 |
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Anakin was pretty certain this had been a terrible idea. He'd had no idea who to talk to, so he'd went to find Chewie, but of course Chewie wouldn't know anything about human sex stuff. Which, to be fair, Anakin didn't really need to know the sex stuff. He'd read the Holonet at home and he knew the mechanics, although he hadn't really paid that much attention to guy guy sex because he hadn't ever really thought he'd be interested in it, but he was pretty certain he could figure it out if he decided he wanted to figure it out, and right now - well, he didn't really want to figure that out, he just wanted to figure out if Nico wanted kissing, or just any of the boyfriend stuff. He flushed bright red. "I don't know. I mean, I - don't know at all. I thought he might like Hope a bit because he's always super friendly to her." “I think the logical answer is that you need to talk to Nico,” Chewie replied. “Because he’s the only one who can really answer your question. I know it’s awkward right now since you were different people there but if it happened there, maybe there is something underneath that made it happen. I might not be making any sense but could it be that it caused you to not be self conscious and so you both did what you wanted to do here?” "You mean, because I liked him here, I kissed him there?" Anakin looked up at the Wookiee, his cheeks still feeling hot. It was the logical conclusion perhaps. That he'd done so because he had some feelings here. Although he hadn't really remembered any of them. Then again, maybe that had been part of the magic, and that had been the part that had pulled through, like his name, like being good with mechanics… "Do you think Nico also wanted to kiss me?" Chewie looked thoughtfully at Anakin. “Well if he kissed you in return then I would say yes. People don’t usually kiss someone that they don’t want to kiss.” This was a strange conversation to be having as wookiees did not express physical affection in the same way as humans. Chewie knew what kissing was, he’d seen plenty of it but it wasn’t something that wookiees did. Still though he would not express affection to someone he didn’t have affection for. "I mean, but just because I want it here and apparently wanted it there doesn't mean that he also wanted it, does it?" Anakin wasn't certain he wanted to jump that far in. He really hadn't gotten any particular indication one way or another that Nico wanted anything more than friendship. Then again, would he even know what that looked like? "I mean, I guess, you're probably right. I need to talk to him." “It seems to me that he’s the only one who can answer your questions,” Chewie pointed out. “You can’t know what he’s thinking.” Although maybe he could, Chewie thought. He didn’t understand the way that Jedi worked but he knew that they could sometimes sense what someone was feeling or thinking. "You're right probably," Anakin sighed not sure that he wanted to risk talking to him. What if he said something and it turned out horribly? What if Nico didn't want to talk to him at all? Which admittedly seemed to be the case. "I'm really glad you're here." Anakin looked up at Chewie. He'd missed the Wookiee so much. He still felt some guilt for what had happened even if he knew that wasn't logical. But Chewie had been family, and he'd always made time for Anakin, even when he'd been frustrated by the boy being underfoot, and it had been important to Anakin. It had mattered. Chewie put out his arms and hugged Anakin to him. He only knew bits and pieces of what happened after his death and he knew that it had hurt Anakin deeply. “I’m glad I’m here too,” he said. “I wish I could be of more help to you but there’s really not much that can be done until you talk to your friend.” The hug was enough. It didn't solve anything, but it made it all feel a little bit more bearable. Anakin wrapped his arm around the Wookiee and leaned into his chest. It had helped. He'd been able to at least say part of what was worrying with him. And the hard part was done - he was still worrying about what Nico would say, but it had been a relief to simply speak his worries. "No, it's helped," he told Chewie. "It'd definitely been helpful, thanks." |