|ᴛʀɪsʜ ᴡᴀʟᴋᴇʀ (trishtalk) wrote in the100,|
@ 2016-04-23 14:11:00
|Entry tags:||!network post, !trigger, flash thompson / agent venom (616), jessica jones (mcu), lincoln campbell, trish walker (mcu)|
I wanted to take a moment to thank you all for continuing the group. Lincoln, you in particular. Your dedication to your recovery and helping others with theirs is frankly amazing.
I know that our next meeting isn't until Tuesday. I missed this week's meeting because I was dealing with my own personal fallout from Storybrooke, which is that I relapsed in that world. Or rather, I started drinking in that world. The memories are hazy of when it started because we had whole other lives, but I definitely drank in those last two and a half weeks there. Ten years of sobriety down the drain. As you can guess, I'm not feeling so great about myself right now. I know that I was not in full control of myself, as I am as Trish Walker, but Rachel Woodson was, and that's something I will have to learn to reconcile.
I know that I have always maintained that we should be able to lean on one another, but I also know that it is the hardest thing to do. We fear repercussions, we fear people not caring, we fear people telling us "Have you tried not being an addict?" I took me nearly a week to reach out here, and I'm used to being upfront and honest. so this is me... asking for help.
So this is hard, because you know I love you. I love you more than anyone else in the world. Any and all worlds, it would seem.
I relapsed in Storybrooke, and I have to ask you a huge favor.
Remember when I first got sober and I couldn't be around anyone drinking or have alcohol around the house?