thestarswillcry (thestarswillcry) wrote in tell_all, @ 2005-09-17 19:12:00 |
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Current mood: | The Angels captured my heart |
Hi. Im new =[
I just feel really bad right now. My boyfriend broke up with me and I know there is a better reason for the one he is giving me. I think he likes some freshman at school. My friend told me she was prettier and whatever else. I dont know. I cant take it. This may be cliche' but, Im too emo for this. Im also bipolar. Im scared that I might do something extreme. Like cut, pop pills, or hang myself. 2 weeks before we broke up, his band members smashed his guitar on the floor and poured gasoline on it ans lit a match and burned it to ashes. He came running to my house all tearyeyed and ranting. When he went home that night, he cut his arms and carved my intiails in his arm. Now, I feel really horrid. Maybe It was my fault for him wanting to break up with me. I told him I liked another guy. But, I never cheated on him. I hate when people cheat. I dont cheat on anyone. As long as you have trust... then its ok. I dont know what Im going to do though. I feel ugly, lost and fucked over. I hate everything thats happening to me in my life right now. I miss him so much and I dont know why shit like this happens,... We even dedicated songs to each other. Heh. I remember back in 6th grade when I saw him. He was so short and had bucked teeth... 6 years goes by too fast.