Anything that Kyu-Sik thought he was going to continue with after asking if now was a good time was immediately dropped from his mind with Donovan’s reaction. His brow uncharacteristically knitted in a moment of confusion, his eyes finally looking for the other male’s. If one was being fair then, no, he was not the person that could be turned to when it came to understanding how friendships worked. He didn’t do well with emotional responses. Donovan’s was hardly that and it was still throwing Kyu-Sik off. The guilt he was desperately trying to repress was seeping out again, as he knew it was because the other didn’t understand the actual situation.
“No, that’s not—” Kyu-Sik found himself sputtering out before he stopped himself. He knew in the end that he was just trying to make right something that wasn’t right to begin with. The boy didn’t remember ever questioning a duty so much as he was this one, and that’s why he needed Donovan to understand. It made him realize that perhaps his motivations in wanting to explain himself were more selfish in the end, but he that’s what he needed for this. “I’m not rejecting you. I didn’t ask for it to be this way. I had been lonely for… a very long time. I could have lived that way for much longer, but I made that promise in the first place because I thought maybe I didn’t have to. It was nice having a friend for once. But I’m not the person you think I am. I’m not even the person I thought I was… And I can’t be that person anymore.”
He drifted off, a hand idly reaching for his tattooed shoulder before falling back to his side. His expression fell to a softened frown. “I need to explain this to you, because I think you might be the only human who can understand it.” Talking animals aside, Donovan had become his closest human friend apart from his sister. And that meant something. But where to even begin?
“Donovan, I know why all of the strange things are happening.”