|Jeremy sees dead people (irktheheart) wrote in somerealityrpg,|
@ 2020-01-17 10:56:00
|Entry tags:||active: elena gilbert, active: jeremy gilbert|
Who: Elena and Jeremy Gilbert
What: talking, throwing people under the bus
When: this morning
Warnings: um, some people need to look out?
Status: complete (I will make this header pretty later)
Things were complicated and they didn't really look like they were going to settle down anytime soon. Jeremy took a swig of his coffee as he walked towards the apartments. The hot liquid nearly burned his tongue and he made a face of annoyance. He was exhausted, thanks to not sleeping well, and probably because he was letting Anna feed from him. Something that he knew couldn't last forever. Damon had told him to bring up the cure. Anna could become human, grow up, get a chance at life with him, but would it really be that easy?
He pulled his phone free to send a random gif to Kitty since he needed to talk. Before he could send the message he felt someone moving closer to him and he looked up to see who it was. Jer had a moment of panic when he saw it was his sister.
"Elena," he greeted easily as he hit send on whatever gif had pulled up first. He clicked the screen off and shoved the phone in his pocket without checking to see what he sent Kitty. "Exploring?" It was a Friday, during school hours, and he definitely wasn't at school. This could only go badly for him. "Where's Damon? I thought he'd be clinging to you." He brought his coffee back up to take a swig as he watched his sister. Thankfully he was wearing gloves with his hoodie, otherwise she would have seen the bandage on his wrist. That was not a conversation he wanted to have at the moment.
Elena wasn’t entirely certain she was adjusting. When it came to her relationship with Damon, there hadn’t ever been a need for adjustment. He was one of the only absolutes in her life, but she just couldn’t seem to shake the feeling that she was displaced. She knew deep down she wasn’t meant to be here, and she supposed she should view it as a gift? A chance she never would have had otherwise? That was easier said than done though.
She was trying, but she just wanted that feeling to go away. It would make things so much easier. Elena and everyone in her life weren’t ever afforded the luxury of ‘easy’ though, were they?
All of these thoughts were spinning around her mind as she made her way out of the Villas. The view of her brother snapped her out of it, however. “Ditching,” she asked with an arched eyebrow- ignoring the Damon comment, despite the fact that her former vampire boyfriend had been clinging to her only moments prior.
"It's only ditching if I went in the first place," he countered nonchalantly. That would probably open a different can of worms, which Jeremy was not looking forward to at all. He couldn't help the way he went into defensive mode the second she called him out on something. It was normal. The one thing he could always count on was the fact Elena would badger him until he was annoyed. At this point he wouldn't have it any other way.
"Looking for a job or something? Damon said he could get me one at a bar." He ignored the fact his phone was going off with notification after notification in his pocket. God, he was afraid to see what he had texted Kitty and what she was texting back. "Even suggested Anna could work too...when she is better."
Anna, the arrival of Anna had knocked Jeremy right back to a different time. He hadn't even stopped to think it was stupid to give her his blood and when she said she still wanted him? He threw himself straight into the relationship. He still loved Bonnie, but this was Anna. "Hey. Want to go get some coffee?" Yes, he knew he was holding a cup, but he just wanted to be around his sister.
Elena’s eyebrows furrowed. “Oh, so we’re just pretending school doesn’t even exist then. Nice, Jer.” Her usual chastising tone was there, but it wasn’t as forceful as it had been in the past. As crazy as it sounded? Discovering that Jeremy was very much still the same brother she remembered from his time, was comforting. So much about this new life was foreign and confusing, and all she wanted to do at that moment was hug him.
“He what?” She supposed it was hypocritical of her to protest. He had worked at the Grill, but that was different. Ugh, everything was different. She hated this. Shaking her head, she tucked her hair behind her ears and decided that this wasn’t a battle she wanted to fight. At least if he was at the bar Damon would be there to keep an eye on him. “How is Anna? I talked to her briefly on the network, are things any better for her?”
When Jeremy mentioned getting coffee, Elena’s face lit up. She would take any excuse to spend time with him, regardless of the fact that he had a cup of coffee already. “I would love that.”
Jeremy snorted, but didn't correct her. No, he actually smirked at his sister. It was nice to have her harping at him about something so mundane. And the next second he was rolling his eyes at her. "It's a job, Elena. It isn't like Damon is getting me into something illegal."
The mention of Anna had him actually frowning. "She's having a little bit of a rough time, I mean she comes from a shit time." Arriving after death was rough, but it had to be worse Anna. She had been alive for centuries and then she was snuffed out. Plus her mom was dead too. The whole thing was fucked up and he didn't know how to exactly help her. He was still dealing with his own issues.
"Come on, sis. Coffee time." He turned around to lead the way to the coffee shop he had just come from, which amused him as he sipped from his cup. "And by the way, I am half working at a GED." Jenna had wanted him to take classes at the high school, but at the time Ric had been the principal there and Bonnie had volunteered to teach. That sounded like Hell to him at the time.
“Fine. Fine. It’s a job, and I’ll deal with Damon myself if anything remotely illegal happens.” Elena’s eyes mirrored her brother’s- rolling up to the sky. She couldn’t put into words how much she was loving this exchange. For the first time since she arrived in Goodland, Elena felt normal.
She nodded as he spoke of Anna. Elena couldn’t imagine that things would be easy for her, and if things had been different? If Elena had come from Jeremy’s time? She may have viewed Anna differently. She wasn’t the same naive girl she was back then, and she was the last person in the world who had the right to judge Anna for anything. “It’s good that she has you, Jer...and I’m glad that you have her.”
Elena hadn’t forgotten that at the time of his death, he and Bonnie were deeply in love. She couldn’t imagine what it must be like for him, being here and Bonnie being from years in his future. This place, for all of its magic, also had a way of being incredibly cruel.
“Coffee time,” she repeated with a smile and followed him happily. “So GED then? I can help you study.” Elena wasn’t disappointed. She was actually kind of proud of him for choosing a path that better suited him. Her brother and school hadn’t ever really had the best relationship.
RIP Damon it seemed. Jer didn't see the big deal about working at a bar, he had worked at the Grill and that place had a bar. There was clearly hardly a difference. "It isn't like he is going to have me pushing drugs," he pointed out with a smirk.
This was normal, reassuring. This was what he needed since he hadn't really talked to any besides Kitty about his jacked up life. Sometimes he felt like the people from his world didn't care that he was struggling, but he also knew he had basically hid it from them. They had their own lives going on and he just worked at drowning his issues in booze.
"Yeah, it's nice to have someone on my side," he said before he could stop himself. "But, uh, yeah. GED. I had no desire to deal with school here, though Jenna did try to get me to take some day classes. I passed doing that, not really my thing, but… having you help me study would be okay I guess." Jeremy knew their study sessions would get on his nerves eventually, but he didn't care at all.
"Going for the GED gives me more freedom to figure out what the Hell I am doing here. It's weird not to have to deal with the supernatural all the time." He gave her a half smile as he shrugged. "Don't really have to worry about someone snapping my neck here."
Elena heard all of the things he was saying about school and the GED, but she couldn’t just let, what she assumed was a slip of the tongue, go. She stopped in her tracks, her eyes narrowing his way. “Wait,” she began holding her hand up in a classic Elena Gilbert ‘what the fuck’ move. “What do you mean nice to have someone on your side, because last I checked, Jer? You had people here.”
And he knew he had really messed up. Jer winced slightly at the thought of basically just throwing a shit ton of people under the bus. He didn’t wish anyone ill despite all the stuff that had gone on. He stopped walking and raised an eyebrow as he watched Elena with a cautious look in his eyes. “Uh, I mean Damon was there for me,” he took a large swig of his coffee and then decided to just keep drinking until it was gone as a means to buy time. That didn’t hold him over long. Great. He pursed his lips together before finally just laying it all out. Jer told Elena everything, every detail he remembered. He tried to keep his tone even, but this was Jeremy. There was some slight annoyance in his voice as he talked about every single thing he had dealt with since arriving in Goodland.
“So...yeah. I’m doing great here. Can we please go get coffee now?” Elena wasn’t going to let this go, not after he had spilled his guts to her, but it didn’t hurt to try and move the locale.
Elena’s eyebrows furrowed as Jeremy told her everything that happened since he arrived in Goodland. She understood people being too wrapped up in their own stuff to notice others, she was kind of the queen of that department, and this place could really do a number on you at first. What she couldn’t understand is how he was expected to just be ‘okay’ after dying, actually dying. No coming back with the Gilbert ring or Bonnie’s help. For God’s sake he was still just a kid, a kid that had been through more than she ever wanted him to go through.
“No, Jeremy. No. We can’t just go get coffee now.” Frowning, and trying to hold back the tears that were a product of both anger and sadness, she stepped forward and wrapped her arms around him. “I’m so sorry, Jer.”
It was probably a good thing his coffee cup was now empty because he found himself hugging his sister. Jer wrapped his arms around her tightly as the coffee cup fell from his hand. The cardboard cup clattered against the sidewalk as they hugged.
“Hey,” he breathed out. “It’s okay, It isn’t your fault. I’m fine.” Jeremy was far from fine, Kitty could most likely fill his sister in on how fine he wasn’t. There had been a point where he drank heavily and even popped some pills, but he had never fully spiraled. “I am still here, aren’t I? I’m working on a GED and I mean, yeah, I gave people the silent treatment for an impressive amount of time. It’s fine.”
Elena held onto him tightly. She was angry that no one realized that he was struggling, and she was sure that anger would explode somewhere sooner or later, but she tried to reel it in for his sake. Being human again had disadvantages, but at least she had somewhat better control over her emotions now.
She made a mental note to thank Kitty for being there for her brother, and finally pulled back- leaning down to scoop up the empty coffee cup. “How long is an impressive amount of time?” Elena wanted to let it go, she really did, but she probably wouldn’t until she knew he was okay. This new life wasn’t exactly easy for her- especially given the fact that she and Damon were from completely different times. He had this whole life with her she didn’t remember, and despite saying that she didn’t want to know? That she didn’t think about it? She did. At least with Jeremy nothing ever changed. She was his sister. His annoyingly overbearing big sister- who would walk through fire for him if she had to.
“Uh,” he started when the hug ended. “I guess a couple weeks, give or take?” Jeremy bit his lower lip for a moment before just shrugging. “I mean after a certain point it was just a matter of pride? The apples and such kept appearing and I was able to give them out as xmas gifts.”
This was not the conversation he had been looking to have today. He knew it would have come out eventually, but he would have preferred it hadn’t popped out in the open while they were outside. “Elena, come on,” he gave her a look as he motioned towards the direction of the coffee shop. “Let’s just go get some coffee. Maybe a scone?”
Jer had an urge to text Damon and let him know all Hell was most likely going to break loose, but that might make things worse.
Elena opened her mouth to ask more questions, but Jeremy’s insistence shut her up...for now. “Okay. Fine. Fine.You’re fine. This is fine. Let’s go.” Moving to walk again, she let him lead the way- she still wasn’t so sure where anything was yet. Other than that one time she went shopping with Kara, she hadn’t really been out in the city much.
She searched her mind for something else to talk about, something to take her mind off of the info dump her brother had hit her with. “You want to hear about the time we got high behind The Grill and shared french fries? Well, I didn’t share too well but there were fries!” Elena didn’t know why that was the first thing she thought of, but that was one of her favorite Jeremy memories.
Oh, yeah, they were definitely not done with this conversation. Jer knew Elena wasn't going to give up that easily and that meant there would be more of her yanking things out of him. He rolled his eyes faintly at her over use of the word fine and took off walking towards coffee.
The words out of her mouth had him raising an eyebrow. "You got high with me? Elena, I'm scandalized!" Jeremy actually laughed slightly as he threw an arm around her shoulders. He pulled her in for one of those awkward one armed hugs as they walked. "If you ever want to get high with me again and hoard fries… I won't hate it."