but now I kind of enjoy the discomfort. Is that weird?
No, that's the tension of teh Snarry! It doesn't make any sense at all sometimes, which is why we love it.
Yeah, you're right about the voyeurism kink. When it's just spying on the sex, that's almost...expected and normal, liking watching "Top Sex Bloopers" or something. But watching the emotional facet of a relationship, unawares, that's even creepier to me. Makes me think of Fatal Attraction.
Hope you're fic's coming along--I'm looking forward to reading it!