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Tweak says, "I couldn't sit down for a week"

Pansy Parkinson (pansy_or) wrote in slytherin_or,
@ 2008-03-29 01:53:00

locked to draco & pansy
WHO: Draco & Pansy
WHAT: Pansy's mad; Draco's wanting his friend back.
WHEN: Following this.
WHERE: Slytherin Common Room
RATING: PG. They've been using some harsh language!

Pansy slammed her legens shut with a thud. Luckily, she was alone so her nosy roommates wouldn't pry into what had her so upset. Hannah Abbott? That prissy and sniveling Hufflepuff? Completely frustrated, she threw the journal across the room, not caring that it banged against the wall. She let out an angry grunt before walking to grab it up again. She hid it and tossed a glance at her reflection in the mirror. Her eyes were red from crying and her hair had a million fly aways thanks to laying on a pillow. Growing even more annoyed, she snatched her wand and uttered a few of her favorite glamor charms. Finally feeling presentable, she headed down to the common room.

Arriving, she plopped down on one of the couches to wait. She crossed her arms, a scowl taking over her entire face. Hannah Abbott. Honestly.

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draco_or
2008-03-29 03:22 pm UTC (link)

Draco, for his part, took off all of his glamour charms. He wanted Pansy to truly see what this time...what everything has been going on...has been doing to him. There were clear dark circles beneath his eyes, he looked far skinnier than he had even at his worst in their time, and his skin was paler than ever. He crossed the floor slowly until he approached where Pansy was sitting on the sofa, then slid onto it himself beside her.

"Hi, Pansy, love," Draco murmured quietly, meeting her gaze meaningfully. He'd let her start the conversation, as Draco really wasn't sure where to go with this one.

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	pansy_or 2008-03-29 03:42 pm UTC (link)
	Pansy did notice the change in his appearance. Normally, she'd have fretted, kissing his cheek and scolding him to eat and sleep. However, this time, she scooted away from him though she did meet his gaze. Pansy didn't recoil under anyone, even those she cared for. "I do believe you can leave the 'love' off, Draco. Pretense is always a killer isn't it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

draco_or
2008-03-29 04:04 pm UTC (link)

Noting her change in behavior, Draco knew what he would eventually have to do during this meeting between them right then and there. "I do believe I'll leave it on, because it's bloody well true," Draco stated firmly, offering her a true challenge right then and there. "I don't have the energy for pretense now, and you better well know it, Pansy. "I barely know Hannah, Pansy, yet my confuddled brain decided that I'd fallen in love with her. That I'd fancied the girl. Perhaps I'm fancied with her, because I've never met another girl like her, but you're the girl who I fancy, Pansy. You do realize she's about the first girl less than a pureblood that I've ever bothered speaking to, aye? Needless to say, in this time, she fascinates me to no end. But it's more than likely a fascination than anything else."

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pansy_or
2008-03-29 08:18 pm UTC (link)

With that, Pansy jumped to her feet. Was he truly telling her he loved her and in the same breath talking about a fascination with another girl? "You spoiled bastard!" Her words came out in a shrill shriek. "How dare you say you love ME and then go on about having a fascination with some other bird! What in Salazar's name is WRONG with you? Stop blaming it on something outside your control and take responsibility!" She wanted to cry, felt dangerously close in fact. However, she would NOT give him the satisfaction of seeing the tears. That could come later when she was alone. "I'm not some familiar old robe you can put on when you're feeling nostalgic, you bloody arse."

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draco_or
2008-03-29 08:23 pm UTC (link)

Spoiled bastard. Well, Draco wouldn't deny that the taunt stung. He tensed up a little as she insulted him and leapt to her feet, but Draco couldn't deny that his own actions were rather foolish. "I don't bloody well know, Pansy. I like Hannah, I do! But you act like...hell! You want me not to own you, yet here you are, acting out as if I left you for another PET." Draco scowled darkly, not knowing how else to phrase it to get it into her thick skull right about now. "I'm allowed to like other girls and forgive me if I wanted to make sure that...I wanted to let YOU know before I did absolutely anything at all! I didn't want you finding out word of mouth or any of that other bloody nonsense!" Maybe he was going a bit far, but whomever said that Pansy and Draco ever did anything but extreme?

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pansy_or
2008-03-29 08:28 pm UTC (link)

"OWN ME?" With her yelling it was a shock no one came running into the room. If anything, they were probably too afraid of the rabid 'new' girl at that moment. Pansy worked up was NOT a pretty sight. "I ALREADY KNEW YOU GAVE UP ON US FROM VINCENT YOU LIAR!" She literally growled on her last line. "Here I was worrying over you and you are claiming you're snuggling up to that daft Hannah Abbott for the future?" She exhaled a long and deep breath to keep her emotions as steady as possible considering how upset she was. "I never even looked at another bloke and...you know what? FINE. Snog her, love her, I don't care! But you don't get Pansy Pa--Sheldon to use when you realize you made a sodding blunder."

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draco_or
2008-03-29 08:36 pm UTC (link)

"Oh, you and Vincent are oh so chummy now, are you? Why don't you go and date him, Pansy? Merlin knows he could use a good girlfriend right about now!" Draco spat the words in self defense, his own tone rising to match hers. He rose to his feet now, meeting her at eye level.

"Whoever said I wanted to use you, Pansy? I want you as a friend, but we've...we've drifted, even before we came here." Draco tensed as she suddenly used Hannah's true last name, and made the pointed reference to the future. His eyes narrowed at those words, determined to politely correct her of their usage. "It's not like I was planning on this to happen, Pansy! It's not like I thought that you were...you were some worthless bird and knew that I had to get out of our bloody relationship, all right? I wasn't even aware that this was happening until just recently, damn it! I've never, never met anyone like her, Pansy. Maybe I am jumping it here, but at least bloody well hear me out rather than beating me around the bush for even daring to suggest that I have interest in another girl!"

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pansy_or
2008-03-29 08:43 pm UTC (link)

"At least he treats me with respect!" She didn't care what last name she used anymore. They were pawns in some game and she was sick of it. "I just SAID you can go snog her all you want, but you won't have me along with that! And if this is all you can keep saying? We're DONE here and I will date WHOMEVER I damn well please." She drew to her full height, her eyes flashing angrily. "But then we're finished. You can't have your eggs in more than one basket. Ask your muggle girlfriend about that saying."

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	draco_or 2008-03-29 08:47 pm UTC (link)
	Draco couldn't help but glare at Pansy, just a little. "Is this all we can be then, Pansy? Significant others? We can't have a friendship even if I choose to date another girl? Is that all I ever was to you, just...just a boyfriend for you to show off?" Yeah, dramatic. Whoever said that Draco wasn't? And his feelings were hurt by her words. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pansy_or
2008-03-29 09:46 pm UTC (link)

"SHOW OFF? I've CARED about you for YEARS and now I'm supposed to sit back and --- you know what? Forget it. You may be Draco..." She lowered her voice ever so slightly. "Malfoy, but you don't get everything you want all the time. It IS a choice and it is clear you made yours." She took a step back, shaking her head. "Go find Hannah. Maybe she'll be more accepting. You know, since you are changing into what SHE wants. I would have taken you no matter --- " She stopped again, swallowing hard against the lump in her throat. "Goodbye." She turned on her heel, rushing from the room. He could follow if he wanted or stay there and sulk. Either way, Pansy's heart ached and felt irreparable.

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draco_or
2008-03-29 11:29 pm UTC (link)

Pansy's words struck a chord. Hannah was only accepting of him in this time, when he was changing, even if her words did encourage him overall. Had he been that blind? As her words broke off, Draco watched as she ran out of the room. He rushed after her, needing to confront her after those last few words had been spoken.

"Pansy!" Draco shouted after her, not knowing how far she'd gone, or where she intended to go. He just knew that he needed to find her somehow.

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	pansy_or 2008-03-30 01:20 am UTC (link)
	She spun around, nearly knocking right into him. "What NOW?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	draco_or 2008-03-30 01:22 am UTC (link)
	"You'd..." Draco gulped as he started to speak, not wanting her to rush off on him. "You'd really have me, no matter what?" he whispered the words, the look of awe forming on his features before Draco could quite prevent it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pansy_or 2008-03-30 01:57 am UTC (link)
	She couldn't help it; her face crumbled though tears still didn't fall. "I just said that, didn't I?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

draco_or
2008-03-30 01:59 am UTC (link)

"I can be rather thick-headed sometimes," whispered Draco as he took a step closer. He saw her broken expression, and knew her sincerity based on that alone. Pansy never showed that sort of emotion publicly, just as Draco never did. He crossed the few steps that kept them apart until they were standing almost nose to nose. "Merlin, I'm so sorry, Pansy. Forget my foolishness, please?" Draco hoped she realized what he was saying without him needing to actually say it. Forget his foolish thought that Hannah could work for him right now. Clearly now wasn't the time for that, if it ever would be the time.

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	pansy_or 2008-03-30 02:04 am UTC (link)
	Yet, perhaps he didn't give Pansy enough credit. She wasn't going to forget his words any time soon. She couldn't block the idea that he was attracted to some other girl. And a muggle-born at that. She stepped back again, her eyes rising to meet his. "Potter asked me to join the DA. I suppose I'll see you there." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	draco_or 2008-03-30 02:07 am UTC (link)
	Draco closed his eyes at that gentle dismissal, knowing what she was saying without speaking it. "Yeah." He gulped lightly, smiling tiredly in her general direction. "For what it's worth, Potter would be foolish not to invite you to join the DA. You'll be a brilliant addition to it." He kept his eyes on hers, not willing to be the first to break contact with her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pansy_or
2008-03-30 02:10 am UTC (link)

"Course." She attempted to return the small smile, but faltered. Draco was really the only bloke she had ever fancied. It wasn't just for the suitable match either. He was handsome and charming and everything Pansy had always desired...yet, she knew, deep down, he had to figure himself out. She only hoped it brought him back to her. For what it was worth, she truly didn't believe Hannah could ever accept Draco in his entirety.

She gave a short nod. "Well, then."

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	draco_or 2008-03-30 02:15 am UTC (link)
	So they'd at least maintain their friendship. Pansy hadn't walked away at that gentle conversation that they shared, which surprisingly caused Draco to feel a sense of tingling on his skin. "I...would you like to go for a walk, maybe?" asked Draco rather awkwardly, unsure if this would be appropriate or not. "I've...I've really missed your company, Pans." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pansy_or 2008-03-30 02:17 am UTC (link)
	But Pansy shook her head no. She had meant what she said; perhaps it wasn't fair, but she wouldn't simply be his girlfriend surrogate. Acting as only a mate would kill her and she wouldn't pretend otherwise. "No, thank you." She took yet another step back. "I suppose I'll write back to Harry now. Tell him." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

draco_or
2008-03-30 02:21 am UTC (link)

Harry. Draco smiled a little as she called the Gryffindor by his first name, guessing that it was a step in the right direction. "All right, yeah. Let him know, then." He ran one hand slowly through his blond hair, watching her skeptically. Draco wet his lips uneasily, wondering if he could say anything now that could keep them as friends, if not more than that. He just knew that he wasn't going to be the first one to leave.

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	pansy_or 2008-03-30 02:24 am UTC (link)
	Then Pansy would be the first to break the connection. She thought too highly of herself to be anyone's second choice. She turned with a final 'Goodbye' over her shoulder. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	draco_or 2008-03-30 02:37 am UTC (link)
	Draco smiled wearily as he watched Pansy take her leave, but was more than sorely tempted to just walk after her, spin her around, and snog her senseless. But even Draco knew that Pansy wouldn't believe it. He needed to settle this once and for all, somehow. Draco actually needed to make a decision in his life for once. (Reply to this) (Parent)