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Olive Woodcrest is evil (evilolivia) wrote in silenstumulosus,
@ 2015-04-25 11:43:00

Entry tags:

james carson (eviljames), olivia woodcrest (evilolivia)

WHO: Olive and James
WHAT: James wants his house key back
WHEN: 4/25, late morning
WARNINGS: Crying, slapping, and reconciliation
STATUS: Closed, Complete

Olive turns the key over in her hand with her thumb as she waits for the front gates of the Carson Manor to open. This is it. It's the end of their story right here and now. Once she hands over this key, the last almost nine years of her life will officially be a chapter in her past and she won't have anything to show for it at all. The worst part, the part that cuts her the most is that he won't even miss her. James Carson doesn't have a heart to break.

She drives down the long road to the house and parks in front, holding onto the car keys so the valet won't be tempted to park it somewhere else. This is to be a short visit; in and out and gone forever. She won't cry. She won't cry in front of him ever again.

She checks her makeup in the pocket mirror to make sure she looks as fierce and untouched as she's going to pretend to be, and then presses the doorbell. Olive takes in a deep breath and removes her phone from her pocketbook, scrolling through texts from Ana so she can appear to be as disinterested as possible when she enters the house. This'll be easy, like ripping off a bandaid.

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eviljames
2015-04-25 04:43 pm UTC (link)

He's drinking a cup of coffee and reading the newspaper when he hears the doorbell ring. It's Olive. He rolls his eyes as he gets up, wondering to himself about why she didn't just use the key to let herself in, then remembers she's trying to prove a point. He walks leisurely across the large house and unlocks the door.

Olive looks about as beautiful as ever. Her make-up looks untouched and fierce, but he knows that's not how she's feeling. He backs up slightly and gestures for her to come in. "Just because you're upset doesn't mean we're strangers, Olive." he says, "You look nice."

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 05:01 pm UTC (link)

She isn't expecting James to open the door himself, in fact, she was hoping it would be one of the servants instead so she could just drop off the key with them and go. When she sees him, her nerve falters and she hesitates, but she flips her hair back with a quick snap of her head and regains her false confidence.

"I'm not upset." She corrects raising her chin defiantly before entering the house. Olive stops a few feet in and turns on her heel to face him. "I'm not going to stay, I have errands to run." She doesn't look in his eyes when she talks, just being near him hurts. She puts for an effort so that he doesn't see how much, trying for indifference rather than weakness.

Her hand tightens around her pocketbook and she wills herself to open it and give James the key, but her hands don't move.

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eviijames
2015-04-25 05:39 pm UTC (link)

He makes sure he doesn't smile when he notices her hesitation. She's moments away from crumbling into his arms like she's done so many times in the past. He closes the door behind her as she talks, then turns to her. Her lack of eye contact is reassuring. He steps towards her when she tries to open the pocketbook, dipping his head down slightly to try to catch her eyes.

He reaches his hand out to touch the side of her arm, "You look upset." He squints as he talks, as if to show sincerity and concern. "You know you don't have to do this. You don't have to end this."

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 05:55 pm UTC (link)

Olive lets his eyes find hers and she holds contact. She finds herself searching for a hint of something true behind those poisonous bright browns despite herself. At this point she doesn't trust herself to judge his sincerity, she has a habit of seeing what she wants to see, especially when it comes to James. She tenses when he touches her and swallows back the lump in her throat.

She sets her jaw and looks off to the side. "Don't", she whispers and shakes her head. This is what he wants. Dee was right in saying that he knows exactly how to play her, but she can't believe that she's that weak pathetic person that crawls back whenever James decides he's ready to call for her. That's how everyone sees her now. She has to prove them all wrong.

"I have your key."

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eviljames
2015-04-25 06:16 pm UTC (link)

He lingers for a moment when she says not to touch her. Searching in her eyes to see if she means it, and decides she doesn't. He removes his hand, but doesn't back up from where he stands. They're close now. He could tell she's talking herself up to this fake strength that she's trying to show him. Her biggest fault is that he knows her too well. Another man might have been fooled, but he can see that all she wants is for him to take her in his arms and promise her that she's the only woman in the world for him. But he knows that even if he did that, they would both know that it was a lie. That lie might actually break her down. He'd rather sit on this fence, he doesn't want to have to lie to Olive. She's one of the only people in the world he can be honest with.

"I know you do." He says with piercing eye contact. It might have looked like he was trying to intimidate her if an onlooker didn't know them, but Olive knows him. "And you're here to give it to me." He studies her face for signs of weakness. He's waiting for the moment to strike.

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 06:30 pm UTC (link)

Olive wants him to move away from her and take her into his arms in almost equal measure. It's dangerous being so close together they both know it. It would take so little for her to crumble back into him and feel safe and comfortable with him again, but she knows it's all a lie. James is the most dangerous man she's ever known and most likely ever will.

She forces herself to meet and keep his gaze. She nods and opens her pocketbook to retrieve it. "I'm sorry I left it earlier." She says casually. "I was in a hurry to get out and I forgot." She picks up the key and holds it out for him to take. "Here."

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eviljames
2015-04-25 06:47 pm UTC (link)

He reaches for the key, but instead takes hold of her hand. He steps closer, still watching her eyes and still holding on to her hand. He looks to her mouth, then back to her eyes. "I don't believe you," he challenges. "This isn't what you came for and we both know it."

He puts his other hand under her chin, tipping it upwards like he does sometimes before he kisses her. He leans forward but doesn't kiss her, instead, his lips stop moving inches from her ear, "Tell me I'm wrong."

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 07:03 pm UTC (link)

Her breath catches when he touches her in such a familiar way and her eyes search his face wildly for an answer to a question she can't believe she's asking again. He's cruel and what's worse is that he's so unashamed of it. She pulls her hand from his and lets the key slip through her fingers and clatter to the floor.

"You're wrong." She says quietly, turning her face so she can see his again. "You're so wrong." She sniffles, though she can't keep her eyes from welling up any longer. This isn't how it's supposed to be. "You're so wrong, James, you're so wrong." She closes her eyes and shakes her head.

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eviljames
2015-04-25 07:28 pm UTC (link)

"Don't lie to me, Olive," he whispers into her hair. "Don't lie to yourself. You're here right now because you need to be. This is where you belong. With me. You're my girl, I'm your man. We need each other."

He brings his hand up to her face as he moves his face away from the side of her head to the front. He kisses her forehead, "Olive, you know I'm no good without you." He moves his face back slightly and wipes a tear away from her face. "I need you here."

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 07:44 pm UTC (link)

"You're a liar and a snake, James." Olive sniffles and looks back at him with renewed defiance. "You don't need me. You don't need anyone. Why are you doing this? Is it fun for you to see me like this? Does it make you feel good?" She pushes his hand away from her and wipes her own face.

"You want to know what Reece told me yesterday?" She says feeling a bit braver and more confident with some of that off of her chest. "He said that he loved me." She didn't believe it, of course. She doesn't think that man or most man for that matter even nows what love is. "He didn't even have to fuck anything up either, he just said it because he wanted to make me feel special. Cared about.

I know this is how you get your kicks but it isn't fun for me to feel like I'm not enough. I'm too good for you."

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eviljames
2015-04-25 08:05 pm UTC (link)

He lets his hand fall when she pushes it away, looking into her eyes as she cries at him. He hardly registers a word she's saying, but he's sure he doesn't have to pay that close attention. She's done this before, he's sure it's just about how she deserves better and how she doesn't think he really loves/needs her. He watches her lips move with a sad concerned look that he can't fight when he sees her like this. At least it works to his advantage more than not.

Something in his eyes changes when she mentions Reece's name. Suddenly he's listening intently. He lets her finish what she's saying, then his features harden, "You think Reece loves you? You think he would ever be able to care about you like I do? Olive, I know you. We've been together for over 9 years, he doesn't even know you.

"And you believe it." He shakes his head and takes a step back, "you need Hallmark cards and promises of eternal love to believe it's true? Olive, he cut the brakes to a car that I drive you around in. He would have killed you. He is one of my closest friends and he waited until you were vulnerable to pounce on you. He's Connor, Olive. He'll say whatever you want to hear to take you from me."

His voice is lined with anger, but most of all, it's sincere. "He doesn't love you, Olive. Nobody will ever care about you more than I do and we both know that's true." He looks at her tears and they make him more upset, "and now you come crying to me about how much another man loves you? How would you feel if I told you about how much someone who claims to be my wife needs me? Would you sit here happily and tell me everything's okay?" He runs a hand through his hair, "you couldn't even take it when I stopped someone from murdering her."

He doesn't even want to see her right now. "You gave me the key, Olive, go back to your husband."

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evilolivia
2015-04-25 08:22 pm UTC (link)

She expected backlash after mentioning Reece but the words still cut her deeply and she flinches away from him when he starts going off, stepping away until her back is pressed flat against the wall. Instinct tells her to apologize and try to make it better, correct him and tell him that of course she doesn't believe Reece when he says it, but James still hasn't said it. She takes a moment to regain herself after he's done speaking to talk.

"Why is it so hard for you to just give me what I want?" Her voice is much louder and more emotional than she intends it to be. "I give you everything you want. I take care of you, I gave you my whole life, my whole heart. Why can't you love me the way I love you? Why am I not enough?"

She steps away from the wall and picks up the key from the floor. "Nobody can take me away from you, James. Nobody but you. You're all I'll ever want, but not like this. Everyone thinks I'm a fool and they're right. You enjoy making me feel foolish. Loving you is my weakness, and you hate weakness. Is that why you torment me?"

Olive reaches the key out for him to take with a shaky hand. "Sometimes I think this is what you wanted all along."

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eviljames
2015-04-25 08:36 pm UTC (link)

"You keep telling yourself that, Olive. Keep telling yourself that you're innocent in this. You're out there with other men just as much as I am with other women. You had a kid with another man, a man who you still talk to on a regular basis. I'm not making you be here, Olive. I don't have any magical hold on you, I never forced you to do anything. You get as much of a thrill from our ups and downs as I do, and you feed off of it."

He walks up to her again and takes the key, "you're the one who's ending this." He spits the words out like venom. "You could have sent someone to drop this off, you could have left it at the door... You want me to beg you to stay? I've come back to you on my knees six times since you got here. I've fired my secretary, and killed for you. I'm done, Olive. If all that still isn't enough, then maybe you're looking for something I can't give you, because all I can give you is who I am. Maybe you and Reece are actually better off together."

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	evilolivia 2015-04-25 08:44 pm UTC (link)
	"I want you to love me." She says quietly. That's all she ever wanted. Her eyes drop to the floor and she bites down on her lips to keep from crying again. She closes her pocketbook and holds it close to her chest before starting back to the door. "Goodbye James." She whispers without looking back as she turns the knob. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eviljames 2015-04-25 08:49 pm UTC (link)
	He watches her move towards the door, " You don't know what you want. You already had that for 9 years, but it's not enough. Listen, I'm not going to share you. Do what you need to do, Olive." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilolivia 2015-04-25 08:54 pm UTC (link)
	The door is already open when he says he's not going to share her and she almost storms out but suddenly she's so furious she can feel the heat of her emotions radiating from her skin. She releases the handle, storms over to him, and slaps him hard across the face. "You're a piece of shit." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eviljames 2015-04-25 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	He tightens his jaw after she slaps him, then looks to her with a new level of intensity in his eyes. He pulls her into him by the small of her back with one hand. "You love it," he accuses. His other hand travels to the back of her head, "you wouldn't take me any other way." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilolivia 2015-04-25 09:05 pm UTC (link)
	She gasps when he pulls her close but she doesn't push him off, she shifts herself so that she's inches away from his lips. She loves the taste of his breath and it's infuriating. Her hands tangle in his hair. "Say it or I'll scream." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eviijames 2015-04-25 09:22 pm UTC (link)
	"Who says I don't want that?" He teases pulling her in again despite the fact that they're touching. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	evilolivia 2015-04-25 09:29 pm UTC (link)
	She drops her hands and slips them under his shirt and pulls her face away just an inch. "Give me what I want and I'll give you what you want." She breathes. "Do it. I want to hear it from you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eviijames 2015-04-25 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	"I love you, Olive" he whispers softly onto her lips, then they do the stuff. (Reply to this) (Parent)