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Caprica Six (numbersix) wrote in seasidecafe,
@ 2009-03-23 23:02:00

Caprica Six: Invisibility
Caprica spends some time silently regarding the water in her drinking glass, turning it slowly to swirl the liquid around inside. She looks up after awhile to speak.

"I wouldn't want to be invisible. I think in some ways, I already know what it might be like. To be indistinguishable from what surrounds you. I've been that, as a Cylon among unaware humans on Caprica. I've blended in as if I'm one of you. 'Invisible' as a Cylon. And before I became more... individual... I was something like invisible among other Sixes as well. The same looks, the same personality, one of many and interchangeable. We had separate missions and I suppose that was the start. And now— I'm distinct now in my experiences and personality, but if I stood with the other Sixes with this light hair, you couldn't pick me out of them without knowing me very well, something of my expressions or how I carry myself. It'd be like I was invisible among very many identical sisters."

She runs a hand slowly through her hair, considering it, before looking back around her. "In a way, maybe we Sixes become the least invisible of the Cylons. The others don't vary their appearance, and they don't take on individual names. If they use a name at all, it's one they all share. They'd be indistinguishable to any of you, and even among us, the Ones are effectively a collective personality sharing memories, so it doesn't matter which physical body we interact with since it's ultimately shared. Sixes, though... Sometime about us is different, I suppose. We set ourselves apart, some sort of streak of rebellion and leadership, maybe. Most of us have this hair, but some of us have darker blonde hair, long or short, black. Different names, I mentioned that before. Lida, Sonja, Shelly. Natalie and Gina." It's difficult to think of some of the stories, but she lightens with a slight smirk. "Of course, with our looks, we never go unnoticed, do we?"

Looking to her side, her eyes focus somewhere in the space near her, and she lifts up her hand. "And there's something else, someone. I don't know what it means. You can't see him, but I do. He often appears to me, talks to me. I don't know what he is for sure. Is he— some sort of damage, a hallucination? A projection I'm not consciously aware of making? We can do that. We can project what we want to see around us, and share it with other Cylons, too. I see myself in a forest here, the dappled light and the breeze rustling, not in some café by the beach. What I don't know for certain is why I see him. I know what I believe and not what the factual reality might be. He knows things that I don't know and tells me them. He advises me. Mocks me sometimes, for... for trying to be like humans, telling me about human nature in such a cynical way. He appears as Gaius, a human man I loved. I saved Gaius's life, and it killed me. It literally killed me. And as soon as I was resurrected from it, I started seeing him. The others weren't aware of him, so I don't think he's a projection, but..."

She curls her fingers, then flexes them out and gestures to the space as she looks around again. "Obviously he's not anyone visible or audible to the rest of you. And that's... that's what I have to say about invisibility. Because I believe that he's an angel of God guiding me, visible only to me perhaps, but he's here with me all the same."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	Ianto walks over to the table where Caprica is sitting. They haven't spoken for awhile, not outside of work, and, well...That was quite a speech, wasn't it? "Caprica." He smiles at her softly. "May I sit?" (Reply to this) (Thread)

numbersix
2009-04-09 09:18 pm UTC (link)

She gives him a wan smile and gestures to one of the chairs at her table. It's been awhile since she tried to talk to him about Gaius, the difficulties of listening to him as her 'conscience,' and she hadn't been able to explain it then. What he might think of her now... she doesn't know. But even with what's happened to him, he was understanding of her not being human.

"Of course, Ianto."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	He takes a seat, looking at her, rather concerned. "Are you all right?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	numbersix 2009-04-09 09:56 pm UTC (link)
	"Nervous, I suppose." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 09:59 pm UTC (link)
	"About talking?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	numbersix 2009-04-09 10:01 pm UTC (link)
	"I suppose even after what I've revealed before, I'm concerned you'll think I'm crazy or won't believe me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 10:04 pm UTC (link)
	"Trust me, after what everyone here has been through, I don't think anyone is a position to not believe you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	numbersix 2009-04-09 10:08 pm UTC (link)
	"I suppose you're right. It just seems that very few here have any faith, and that the more I reveal, the more secrets seem to be left." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	"Well, that's often the case. The more you learn, the more you realise you don't know." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	numbersix 2009-04-09 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	"True. I've had so much to learn here." She settles herself more into her chair, briefly looking next to her and then nodding before looking back to Ianto. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	"I think we all have." He looks to the empty chair, then back to Caprica. "Is Gaius there?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	numbersix 2009-04-09 10:19 pm UTC (link)
	"What sorts of things have you learned?" She nods and folds an arm over the back of the chair, like she's got her arm around someone-- and from her perspective, she has, around Gaius's shorter-than-her form. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notjusta_teaboy
2009-04-09 10:23 pm UTC (link)

"A lot about myself. I think I've become more confident and more open since I got here. And I've seen a lot of stuff that I haven't been able to sort out yet, like the little box that can give you whatever you ask for." He looks towards the empty chair, not like he's humouring Caprica, but like he's as convinced as she is that there's someone there. Things there that you can't see or hear are rather run-of-the-mill for him. "Hello."

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numbersix
2009-04-09 10:28 pm UTC (link)

"Those are good lessons to learn. Ahhh, our laundry box? It does a very good job with the towels. I try not to think too much about how it works. I'm not sure my mind's designed to handle that."

She isn't sure at first what might happen, but Gaius quirks his eyebrows and smirks, apparently amused at being addressed by someone who doesn't register him. "Tell him I said 'hello' back."

"Do you?" she says aloud to him, and then back to Ianto, "He told me to tell you 'hello'. I have no idea if he's able to make himself... perceivable to you."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 10:37 pm UTC (link)
	"I try, and then it makes my head hurt. But it's fascinating, at any rate." He watches the exchange between them, well, the one side he can see, anyway, with great interest. He looks over at the chair again. "Could you? Do you want to, even?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

numbersix
2009-04-09 10:45 pm UTC (link)

"An avoidable headache, certainly. It is, but it's beyond my understanding of how things operate. Do you think it might be transcendental like the TARDIS?"

Gaius leans his elbows onto the table and regards Ianto with similar interest, although Ianto's obviously isn't focused directly on him. "Why would I want more people to see me? You see me because you've needed to, because of God's plan. Gaius himself sees what looks like you because of his own role. Why would Ianto? You're responsive to me because I'm like Gaius. What would it serve for Ianto to see this?"

"He wonders why you'd see him, if you could, what the purpose of that would be. I think he's trying to say that... The forms that they take on, they're intended for who they're guiding. If someone else saw them like that, it wouldn't be the same. You never knew Gaius, for instance."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 10:52 pm UTC (link)
	"True. They might be related in some way. But it seems like the luggage doesn't really know or care what dimension he's in." "They? The angels?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

numbersix
2009-04-09 11:02 pm UTC (link)

"I wonder if the luggage is... 'naturally' the way it is, or if it was designed in that way somehow, engineered." She doesn't really think of it as a 'he' since it doesn't seem to have any gender that she can determine.

She nods. "Gaius-- the real Gaius, he sees someone, too. He sees... me, but it's not me. Apparently even when I'm with him, sometimes he's seeing both of us. And I believe they're angels, yes. I don't know why they've taken on our forms and are appearing to the other as us but... but I suppose it's intentional, because it's worked and we've listened."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't know. We could ask him." He nods. "Well, I suppose it makes sense, to appear to you as someone you love and trust. Someone you would listen to." He turns to the chair again. "Are you a guardian angel? Can you protect her, or just talk to her?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

numbersix
2009-04-09 11:16 pm UTC (link)

"I've never really... 'talked' to the luggage all that much."

She nods and regards Gaius. "I... I knew I loved Gaius before I ever saw him, but I don't think Gaius loved me at the time. I'd hoped he did. Maybe he did and he wasn't really aware of it himself, or maybe he only grew to love me later. Maybe seeing her helped him love me. I don't know."

Gaius scoffs. "'Guardian angel'? Do you even know what the conception of a 'guardian angel' is?"

Caprica bristles a bit with that, "I've done some research, yes. People believe guardian angels can physically intervene or warn them from danger."

"And what do you think?"

"I think you've never truly physically intervened. You don't interact with the physical world the same way we do, but yes, you've warned me and guided me. You see further than I do."

"And what does he think? What is a 'guardian angel' in his conception?"

"He wants to know what you think a 'guardian angel' is."

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	notjusta_teaboy 2009-04-09 11:25 pm UTC (link)
	"He's very enthusiastic. About everything." "Love can be complicated. And confusing. I know." He watches and listens; there appears to be some sort of argument going on. "A guardian angel is a supernatural being who watches over you and protects you from danger." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

numbersix
2009-04-09 11:38 pm UTC (link)

"More than laundry and bacon sandwiches?"

That's an understatement, in her opinion, especially when it comes to involving other Sixes, angels who take on these forms... it's a different level of complicated. Then again, Ianto does have some experience with strange circumstances in relationships, too. A girlfriend being turned into a machine and a boyfriend who can't stay dead are complicated.

"What qualifies as 'supernatural'?"

"He does do that, yes, although he lets me experience danger. Facing it is a way to learn. He does help me, though, warn me of things, advise me. And he asked what you mean by 'supernatural'?"

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notjusta_teaboy
2009-04-09 11:46 pm UTC (link)

"Oh, much more. You really ought to talk to him sometime."

He gives her a soft smile; he knows some of the things she's been through in her love life, too.

"Yeah, facing danger can be as important as avoiding it at times." He thinks of a good way to phrase it. "I guess...a being who doesn't obey natural laws. Of course, some things that seem supernatural may merely surpass our understanding of natural laws at that time."

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numbersix
2009-04-09 11:53 pm UTC (link)

"I'll try to. It's not like I don't see him around often, collecting the mess I'm making."

She considers that while Gaius is nodding away with it, amused. "That makes sense. I'd imagine that the original resurrection technology seemed supernatural since it was, after all, a way of restoring life, but it's an application of science. It relies on what we call organic memory transfer. If you have the right body to transfer the memories to, you can resurrect that same personality and physicality. Of course, I guess that leads to metaphysical questions about the nature of life and the soul. From what I've seen, the angels are beyond natural laws as we understand them. Appearing or disappearing at will. Physically affecting select things-- like I can feel it when Gaius touches me, but as far as I know, he can't manipulate the physical or hasn't demonstrated that to me. He's sitting in the chair, but does that mean he's actually present in the chair and exerting force on it like we do?"

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notjusta_teaboy
2009-04-10 12:13 am UTC (link)

"You don't make a mess."

"Hmm, now that's something I've never heard of. When you say 'body,' do you mean an actual living body, or just a...vessel...of some sort?" That sound uncomfortably like what had happened with the cybermen. "I mean, memories I can understand memories, since those are electrical impulses in the brain. But an entire personality...." He looks over at the chair. "I don't know. You could try picking it up. If he's exerting force on it, you wouldn't be able to."