Safe and Sane

To: "All Members"
From: beth @ differentstrokes . com
Subject: Opening Saturday July 11th

Hello all,

Different Strokes will be opening our doors for business for the first time on Saturday July 11th at 11am. Come along and enjoy free cake, have a coffee, look around, and find out about our plans for an open, accepting space, later to include a toy shop and art gallery.

And if you've got any books you'd like to donate to our community lending library, please do come along and drop them off.

love,
Beth

From: bethyjen @ googlemail.com
To: "Charlie"
Subject: Re: Um

Obviously you're terribly busy and I still can't get hold of you and I know it's doesn't exactly sound like the most appealing thing ever at all but I really do need to talk to you. Please call.

Beth.


From: bethyjen @ googlemail.com
To: "Gus"
Subject: Re: Wish you were here

Gus,

I don't know if you've even got my last email but maybe for once I'm quite glad you aren't here. It's certainly easier to type an email to you than it would be to talk to you. For one thing, you're not interrupting. For another, you're not insisting on tests and trying to march me down the aisle, which is rather a relief.

Yes, I'm still late. Twelve days, now. I swear I've been safe, always, and I'm still taking the pill, though God only knows what that might do to any hypothetical...well, yes, let's just not even say the word. I'm not throwing up or anything and I know Mum always said she did, start to finish, with both of us, but I haven't been late or even irregular at all since I was about sixteen.

I don't know what to do. Yes, I know what I should do, but I daren't do a test, because that makes it real and what do I do if it's positive, anyway?

I'm moving into your house. You're not using it and my place is going back to the university at the end of the month and I promise I'll find somewhere else to go to, I've just got rather a lot of other things on at the moment and I'm not going anywhere near your playroom, I promise.

Come home.

B.


From: bethyjen @ googlemail.com
To: "Mid"
Subject: A favour?

Darling,

I don't suppose that you might be free next weekend to help me move house?

Love to Jenny,

Beth

To: "Gus Reynolds"
From: Gale Kelton <kelton.gale@gmail.com>
RE: in statu quo res erant ante bellum

"In the state in which things were before the war." I'd imagine that's rather how you feel, like you've been through a war of sorts and, if we're as near alike in some ways as I think we are, you know well that reaching status quo, attaining anything resembling status quo, a state before the war, is near impossible.

War changes us. Relationships, love, friendship, break ups, divorces, death. Life changes us. I don't find the comparison between war and life to be too much of a stretch.

I simply wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you, that I'm sorry about you and John, and that, for what its worth, I think that the healthiest thing you could do for you is what you're doing. Take care of yourself, Gus, and when, if, you come back, I hope to hear from you.

We'll find something a bit stronger than tea to welcome you back. Call me if you need me.

Gale

To: "Armand"
From: bethyjen.reynolds@googlemail.com
Subject: As requested

Darling,

I'm never quite sure of how to write this sort of thing without it seeming like a shopping list, and less so when I'm not quite sure of myself, but I am sure of this: I'd like to sub for you. Please. It's been rather a long time since I've wanted anything deeper than play, but if you're willing, I'd really like to be yours for the weekend. Orders, kneeling, restraints - I'm not really looking for pain, at least, not deep pain, but I'd like to wear your marks, and if I push back, and I probably will, I might need pain as reassurance.

We can talk on Friday, I suppose, when I arrive, but mostly I just wanted to say thank you. I'm baking tonight, and packing, and I'll see you tomorrow night.

yours,
Beth

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To: "Gale Kelton" <kelton.gale@gmail.com>
From: "Eva Garland" <eva.kelton@hotmail.com>
Subject: Scheduling

Gale,

I shall be traveling out to Italy this week to spend Thanksgiving weekend with Joy - Roberto, of course, sees no point in celebrating, but accepts that he would prefer my visit not to coincide with his family at Christmas.

Would Oscar have time for a visit with me before I leave? I know that it is short notice, I have just confirmed my flights this morning. I also have a favor to ask of you, which is better discussed in person.

I met your Edmund on Friday. He seems a very gentle man.

Eva

From: John Harper
To: Geoff Aherson
Subject: All the roads we have to walk are winding

Geoff,

You know what they say about curiosity killing the cat? Well, apparently it kills Johns, too -- and if you make a prostitute crack, I will fantasize about castrating you and tell you all about it. In vivid detail.

Yep, I read your checklist. I'm not sure if I want to be proud of you, or if I want to go beat the ever-loving shit out of Donnie, because I know there's stuff on there that you never did with me. For the record, I'm leaning toward both, and debating making wise-cracks about our sexlife.

All the lights that lead the way are blinding,
John.

From: Charlie
To: Beth
Subject: I humbly seek forgiveness...

For being busy as hell with school and family stuff. I haven't checked in nearly as much as I thought about you.

How are you? Missing me, I hope.

Dirty thoughts,
Charlie

From: John Harper
To: Gus Reynolds
Subject: I don't want to push, but what about us?
Attachment:What About Us.mp3 Lyrics

Gus,

This is where things get hard, and we see what we're made of.

Life right now is full of so many things, for both of us. You're getting back to work, and so am I. I'm trying to set up a scene with Gale, you're trying to set one up with Jason. My ex is camped out on our couch, providing a reminder to you that I have loved in the past, and to me that love, in spite of all my idealism, isn't enough.

I need you, Gus.

I need to be put on my knees. I need you to push me, and remind me that you're willing to let yourself go and be possessive with me. I need to know it's me you want. I need your hands on my throat, reminding me that even when I'm scared that I'm safe with you. I need to give you my breath and my trust, and I need to show you that you're the only one who can have that from me.

I need you with me. I need us. I need us to be paying attention and working on this thing together. I need you to help me make sure we're both as secure as we can be, before I'm on the other side of the country, singing songs of love and betrayal and heartbreak to someone else.

I love you.

John.

To: "Gale Kelton" <kelton.gale@gmail.com>
From: "Eva Garland" <eva.kelton@hotmail.com>
Subject: Delays

Gale,

Business has, as I'm sure you've realized, taken longer than I planned. I should be back in town on Monday at the latest.

I hope you've had a pleasant September, and that Oscar is settling well at school, and had a wonderful birthday.

Eva.

From: John Harper
To: All Club Members
Subject: This is the time....

Hey all,

Most of you know that I was headed to New York a week or so ago for auditions. While I was there I auditioned for a few shows and by the time I got home I'd been offered a couple of roles. Since then I've been embroiled in contract negotiations. That's a long winded way of saying: I accepted the part of Valjean in Les Mis. It'll be a different experience from the last time I did the show, but I'm really looking forward to it.

I'll be doing some flying back and forth from here to New York over the next few months to get things like housing squared away, and at the first of the year I'll be moving out for the duration of the show. Since my contract stipulates I can't do more than 5 shows a week, I should be able to manage the odd weekend back and my apartment is your apartment, if anyone wants to fly out to see the show and the city.

The other piece of news is that Gus is moving in. With me, I mean. He's been doing some rearranging in my house while I was gone, and one of the things we wanted to do once that was settled was have a party. I don't *think* he means he wants to have a 'drop your pants and share your ass' sort of party, and if so we're going to have to argue, but I know I'd love you all to come over and celebrate the step in the relationship and our general, sickeningly sweet, happiness.

All my love, and for god's sakes RSVP,
John.

Dear Gale,
I have another trip. I should be back by Friday. I hope you're well and Oscar hasn't run you ragged yet.
Edmund

Jon,

My friend Jason gave me your name and suggested I talk to you. I'm pretty new to kink, well new to the formalities of your club and was wondering if you had some time to chat with me?

I know, it's a little out of the blue, but the party a week ago sort of shook a bunch of stuff loose and I'm not sure what to do with it.

Thank you,
Ami

To: "Bridget"
From: "Beth Reynolds" <bethyjen.reynolds@googlemail.com>
Subject: Hoops of fire

Hello Bridget,

I'm terribly sorry, I have no idea how I managed to miss mentioning this when we talked, but, well, because of the things we talked about, anyone new that I scene with needs to be confirmed with Gus first - just a safety thing for both of us.

Let me know, please, if you're willing to talk to him. If not, I'll completely understand.

regards
Beth

To: kelton.gale@gmail.com
From: eblake@hotmail.com
Subject: Apology


Dear Gale,

I'm sorry it's taken me this long to contact you. I got your message on Sunday, thank you for checking in. I'm glad you're okay.

I'm also sorry for my behavior on Saturday. I communicated badly, then failed to communicate and exasperated the problem. I hope the rest of your evening was more enjoyable.

Edmund

To: "Gale Kelton"
From: eblake@hotmail.com
Subject: Return


Dear Gale,
I've returned from my trip.

The speech was fine and I enjoyed seeing Dr. Troughton- I haven't seen him since university so it was a pleasant reunion though he kept me out very late on Saturday evening after the first lecture. I was yawning the next morn though fortunately I was able to resist the urge during the speech on Sunday and so prevented myself from being grievously rude.

I thought of you often. Thank you for allowing me to stay with you those three days. It meant a great deal to me. I enjoyed your company very much.

I hope your reunion with Oscar went well and your healing progresses in all ways.

Affectionately yours,
Edmund Blake

Hey sweetheart,
I need sperm by the first- between tomorrow and then is perfect.

Sorry for the late notice, I forgot I hadn't told you.
Love,
Auri

To: "Helen Andrews", "Ian Stewart"
From: "Eva Garland" <eva.kelton@hotmail.com>
Subject: Introductions

Dear Helen and Ian,

I was given your e-mail addresses by Gale Kelton, who has advised me that you are the correct people to approach regarding membership of the Power Company. I realize that this isn't the standard way to initiate contact, but there are certain events in my past life that you should be made aware of before I attend a munch or similar open event.

I'd prefer to discuss matters face-to-face rather than by e-mail or over the phone, however, we can progress this however you feel is appropriate. My contact details are attached, and references can and will be provided.

regards,

Eva Garland.

From: John Harper
To: Gus Reynolds
Subject: Pull me up short, and put me through hell
Attachment: Being Alive.mp3

I woke up this morning thinking about you, and kept thinking about you all day. Every time I sat down, I ended up with a sore ass and a deep desire to see you -- well, see you and have you buried balls deep inside me.

I told my manager that I wanted to work on Broadway instead of the West End, for now. It's still the other side of the country, but that's got to be more managable than the other side of the Atlantic.

When it's time for me to go to work, we're going to do something to make very sure that you're never far from my mind. Or my ass. I don't know what yet, but something.

Oh, and I met Pete. Nice guy. I took a nap on him.

John

From: John Harper
To: "Gus"
Subject: I'm still standing.
Attachments: Ass1.jpg, Ass2.jpg, Ass3.jpg
( I'll save the grinding for you )