Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: jack c/evie s
I'm okay. But I just have a hard question to ask you so I need to just get it over with like a bandaid.
I haven't heard from you since we last talked, I remember something about you not liking me anymore. I don't really know. It's been terrible, and I'm used to it by now. It's fine. But if you do or don't, I just...I still really trust you, because I know you, and even if you are mad at me, or if I did something stupid, or said something wrong, or just no one likes me because I'm not smiling anymore, I don't think you'd be mean to me about it.
I just [...] [Long long long pause]
Can I maybe come stay with you? Daisy and I? I don't know how long it would be, I would pay rent. You can have whatever amount of my check you want. I get food stamps for Daisy, so its okay. I have a job in Gotham, it isn't the best but it pays and I bet Eddie would buy me lunch if I needed him to. And he was talking about maybe opening something in New York, so maybe I could help there too and make more money.
I'm really trying to get people to be happy with me, and Wren hates the motel. Luke hates the motel. Wren hates my job. Luke hates my job. Now this other kind of new friend of mine, who is very nice and it was very nice of him to ask even though it was really out of the blue and kind of weird but still nice, wants me to come and stay with him because I was staying there before. And I think he feels sorry for me.
But even he's a little bent out of shape because I live in a motel and he hates the motel too, but his friend already asked me to leave their place once and I don't really want to deal with that again. It was absolutely humiliating. And his friend thinks I'm crazy, which I probably am. And he thinks I'm whiny. Which whatever. I probably am. I just...Don't want to deal with that. Maybe that's not very brave of me. But, no matter what the reason was, even if the reason was good, whatever it was I had to ride a bus home from the mountains with a toddler and lost some of my stuff as a result. That's not counting the stuff I lost getting evicted. So we don't have much. A couple of suitcases and a dog that Wren gave us for Christmas. I know that's still asking a lot.
And maybe you'll say no, or ask me to leave too, but at least it would just be the first time. I just would really like people to think that I'm doing okay instead of worrying all the time. Do you think I could rent your couch? Or a room? Or something? I'm tidy. I clean all the time, and Daisy is still loud and fit throwy but we're working on it I promise.