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Tweak says, "Use the Schwartz!!"

Heather Lisinski (irradiated_ants) wrote in ridgeway_comm,
@ 2011-08-23 01:34:00

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dean winchester, heather (lisinski) dinozzo

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I know you and me don't talk. And I probably lust over your car way more than I should. And... I don't know if you know, but I consider you and Jo family. ~~Would love to consider Anna family too but she doesn't like me much~~ And I know you know I love Cas to death and would do anything for him. Calling him my best friend seems pale in comparison to what's really there.

Anyway, where this is leading. I don't know who you're dreaming of... But... I've been dreaming of Cas. And Baby. And I feel like I owe you an apology. Even if I can't help but dream what I'm dreaming. Mainly cause I don't feel bad for dreaming them. Because it beats the nightmares that keep me awake. Because he and I can laugh about them, because so far they've been absolutely ridicules down to the 70s style music.

This isn't shaping up to be a very good apology. So... I'm sorry. I don't know if it'll help much but I baked you a pie. It's apple. And it's wrapped up good and tight, and sitting in the passenger seat of your car... With a fork, so you don't have to share if you don't wanna.

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butiwaswrong
2011-08-23 11:42 pm UTC (link)

~~I really didn't need to know about that. The dreams. You and Cas. Really. Didn't. Need. To. Know.~~

The dreams are Peterson's revenge. Crowley doesn't have the mojo to do it, and Peterson's just enough of a dick to throw that back at us. Enjoy it while you can, it's not gonna last ~~if I have tot ake the bastard out myself, I will end this~~.

Thanks, for the pie. Definitely not sharing.

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irradiated_ants
2011-08-24 12:20 am UTC (link)

I know this is probably not something you wanna hear. But... He's done worse. And this could be worse. He could be putting these people in the dreams we have on a regular basis. And I would't wish mine on my worst enemy, let alone someone I care about. ~~I don't want Cas to see that. I don't want Cas to ever see that.~~

I'll leave another tomorrow... And probably every day till this is over. It doesn't cover the guilt I feel. But I hope... It's something.

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	butiwaswrong 2011-08-24 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	No reason to feel guilty, Peterson's the one to blame. Just...don't try and make it a reality, yeah? Cause then we might have issues, and I don't think a pie or five will quite make up for it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

irradiated_ants
2011-08-24 07:48 pm UTC (link)

Oh... I can-.. No I swear, on my Dad's grave, that it will never ever ever leave dreamland. Because, despite what we do there, I don't feel that way about Cas. Looking through a strangers eyes Cas is attractive in that way. But through mine he's beautiful there's absolutely no sexual attraction or tension between him and me. Not to mention I'm fully devoted to Tony.

Can't promise I won't drool over Baby from afar though.

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	butiwaswrong 2011-08-24 07:55 pm UTC (link)
	I know. And I can't blame you for that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	irradiated_ants 2011-08-24 08:05 pm UTC (link)
	I'm just trying not to think about it too much. Just leaving it as it is. Cause-... I just don't wanna over think them. She is very hot. I told Cas that I thought your car was supersexy and he's teasing me about it. Saying I should see her while you wash her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	butiwaswrong 2011-08-24 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	Not gonna happen. That's private time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	irradiated_ants 2011-08-24 08:24 pm UTC (link)
	Darn, a girl can fantasize can't she? Fluffy bubbles running down that shiny chrome finish... The thundering purr of a freshly oil changed engine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	butiwaswrong 2011-08-24 11:29 pm UTC (link)
	Watch it, that's my baby you're talking about. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	irradiated_ants 2011-08-24 11:37 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry, she is a lady I shouldn't think such pervy thoughts. Would it be bad if I washed Gibbs' Charger and pictured Baby? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	butiwaswrong 2011-08-24 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	I don't want to talk about this anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	irradiated_ants 2011-08-25 12:03 am UTC (link)
	Alright... I was just teasing... (Reply to this) (Parent)