I probably should be telling you this face to face, but I just know I'd chicken out...

First... I love you. More than anything! You know that right. There is no one else I want to be with. You'll always be the one for me...

When you were away... sent home... Lily Lu and I went out one night. I was miserable because I thought I might never see you again... Petersen said he couldn't bring you back, and I just wanted to forget. We got really drunk and... well... we had sex.

I'm so sorry, Vic. I wanted to tell you before, but I didn't know what to say. You weren't here, and I didn't want to make arriving here even harder for you.