Re: Mulder/Scully
I can say with all honesty that if I were being seriously probed by aliens, you would absolutely be the first person I told. And I hope that you would show me the same consideration if you ever find yourself in the same situation. You do not need to tell me the details of probing, no matter what truths it may uncover. Though it may make for interesting reading for the post office voyeurs.
Fine is the platitude people expect when they ask. I do not know if I would say how I feel is a burden. The problems that I would want to discuss with people are not matters most want to talk of. As you can see, I prefer deep conversations. Some of my friends are delicate. Some are bon vivants. Discussion of my serious matters does more harm to them than good. But it also goes back to them having to accept me as I am right now, yet they always want me to be something I am not. You know, fine. And, Mulder, to be completely honest, I am an exceptionally fucked up individual.
When we ask one another, 'fine' and 'well' are off limit answers. Deal?
If I saw a flaw, I would tell you even if you asked me not to. Fortunately for you, there is no flaw to be seen. Your theory is sound and I am interested to know if it works out. Was there anything that kicked this decision into gear, or did the realization come gradually?
50/50 seems fair, but I agree that it does not seem right. 100% is impractical. If your life revolves only around one person, that is obsession. Love, true love, should enhance every part of your life, not keep you from enjoying the rest of the world. You are sharing your life with them, not making them your entire life. Perhaps once it is found, it balances itself out. Maybe it is not something either of us needs to put energy into trying to figure out today.
Intent is important, but what about intent for what comes after? In my particular case, I had not been taught that killing was wrong. I believed with all of my heart that I was doing the right thing. I was not, and I see that now. I learned from my mistakes. I do not want to be that person anymore. But if I cannot be pardoned for my past, what point is there in trying to change my future?
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P.S. No, but there are far more good snowflakes than bad.