Re: Nilus D/Damian W There is always something to do. You must be stronger for this man who is now gone. Would he wish that you spent your time self-flagellating, burying emotions, et cetera? Does that honor his memory? There are times I feel I do not deserve Misha, but my expressing those thoughts only makes him feel poorly. Perhaps there is no desert in this matter. Perhaps one cannot deserve another person. That removes their say. Your experience, to have and to lose, is the definition of humanity. It is what we do, over and over, until we are gone. Loss cannot mean there is nothing more.
You know, however, that that is not what he desires or you would not have spoken with me on this matter.