Re: Misha B/Dietre A
That isn't what I meant. Its so hard to explain... I don't want to hurt anyone, but I don't want to hurt either. I had almost convinced myself that Liam was not interested in me. If I knew for sure he wasn't, I could focus on John and figuring out if what I feel for him is love or not. And if it isn't, I could then work on falling in love with him, like you said, over time. I wouldn't let myself consider Liam if I knew he'd never return my feelings.
But if he is interested, it changes everything. I will have to choose, won't I? How can I choose now when I don't even know what being in love is like, or if what I feel for them is love or not? I like them both, in some ways for the same reasons, but also for very different ones.
Can it really be said that I'm seeing them both? Only John has told me he'd love me, and I accepted him because he's the only one who's ever said they'd love me. But I don't think he knows what love is any more than I do.