You read too much into things. I'm just saying I'm done drowning. That's all, that's all it is. I'm done drowning, and you're asking and asking like I'm drowning because of Si, and I'm not. Si disappeared from my life when he was seventeen. He was gone and gone, and sometimes he'd show up and need money, but he wasn't there. I know what it's like to live without Si.
I don't talk to anyone about what I am. No one wants to talk about that. No one wants reminders, and so I don't remind.
David does think he's dead. He believes it to his marrow, that he's dead. He isn't. I know dead. I am dead. I don't pretend to understand after, what happens and what doesn't, but I know I remember dying and being dead, and I know dead. David isn't. But he's broken.
Si tried to talk to Seven. He tried more than once, and he tried nice and then he tried again, and Seven didn't reply to him even once. Not once, and Si won't reach out and try again.
I don't want you to talk to Mars. I want to let Mars be and let her have what she wants, and I want to let her come to me if she wants to. That's all I want.