Dante "Inferno" Zaragoza - Death'll find you... (xolotl) wrote in repose,
Re: Georgia/Dante via personal secure messaging system
I hope you can too.
I hate it when you have a point against my emotional bullshit. [.............] I think she doesn’t really know me me. She’s seen more than most people around here of who I really am but... not completely. I have to play nice all the time around here because fucking everyone knows everyone and no one likes any fucking conflict. I feel fucking muted here, like I have to be half a person just so I won’t get fucking kicked out of town. She doesn’t know the full me and she won’t, the full me sucks. I won’t put her in danger like that. Though maybe if I started showing her how much of a bitch I am she’d smarten the fuck up.
No, no, we’re not doing that. We’re not doing “what if you two met somewhere else when this shit wasn’t an issue” shit because that’s not where we are and not what’s happening right now and I get exploring hypotheticals is part of a good science experiment but I.... I can’t plan on a future I probably won’t live to see That’s not What I deserve gonna help anything other than probably making my head more of a fucking mess.