Re: NYC: Hannah & Hugh
"I don't know if I don't want them," Hugh considered. "More that it wasn't a good time. And maybe I don't. I don't think I need them. If I had some, I'd try to... you know be a good dad." It was an odd concept to think about really. And he didn't feel as if he'd had very much of an example to go with. Really he just hoped all of his attempts to keep from impregnating someone had worked and he wasn't going to be sideswiped in ten years or whatever with a fully grown kid like he'd done to his biological father.
He took a sip of the gin and considered. "Our lives? Theatre. Books sometimes, I'm not very good at that, because I don't read that much, not like you," he offered her a fond smile. "But um, just things. He has a daughter, and he's been incredible about listening to me figure things out this summer," he hesitated. "It's hard for me to talk about the stuff that matters sometimes but it's not really that hard with him, and it's nice to have someone like that. Hopefully I'm not totally misjudging character and it's all going to end up in me being horribly embarrassed down the road - and I'm half like, joking, and half serious, because I don't know how good I am at it anymore. But I think he's good. He feels good."
There was relief at her agreement, and his lips pulled up into a smile, and he squeezed her fingers back, warm, and appreciating that they were still there. There were times he wondered what things looked like moving forward, but he realized just then he hoped they looked like this. Her caring about him, and him caring about her, and that was all either of them needed it to be. Maybe it was exactly what they needed it to be. "I'm glad," he breathed out. "I think we want good things for each other," he smiled. "I think that's how friends should be, probably."
He didn't know how to ask then, 'what's next for Hannah', because he wanted to, but didn't know if it'd just remind her of the things she had no control over, and he didn't want either of them to dig reality into this night too deeply. "No more sex work then. Are there things you will do that you haven't been doing?"