Re: Hannah S/Seven M
I get that wanting to be free and actually wanting to get clean sound the same, but they're not. Free can mean a lot of things. Not all of them good. You wanna know what I had to learn, and what you're gonna have to learn? We think we're doing a good thing. Not giving up on them, because we love them. But all that we're doing is giving them reasons not to change. It's called enabling, and there's a pretty good chance that me paying for Marta's rehab is just another example of me enabling her. Just like how I always come to the rescue when she calls me because she got herself in trouble again. It's not giving her any reason to stop getting in trouble.
It's exactly like that.
A part of me will always love her, for giving me our daughter. But the woman I knew back then, the one I loved. She's not around anymore. Hasn't been for a long time. And no, I don't like the person that she is now. I get that that makes me a shitty person, don't worry. I know it's not her fault, and that it's not fair for me to feel that way.