Re: Hannah S/Jamie M
What would be the least worse is if I didn't need to do all the work in the conversation. What would be least worse was if we loved each other, and if that was enough. What would be least worse would be if you could talk to me about a dream, because we lived under the same roof and lived the same lives, and we should be able to talk. Even if we aren't the best of friends, we should be able to be there for each other. It shouldn't always be a fight to get you to talk to me. It shouldn't be, and it is. And I know you had hard things, but so did I. We all did, and I don't think that's an excuse. I think family that doesn't see each other for years is still family. Maybe we're too broken, and maybe we should give up, and maybe I'm spinning my wheels and need to find new people. I'm not sure. I'm not sure.
Please don't write out excuses and excuses and apologies and apologies. Those are just words, and words really don't count for anything at all.