Re: Visiting the Hospital
Sam wasn't perceptive enough to know if Daniel was bullshitting her, yeah? Even on a good day, when she wasn't physically sore and emotionally spent, she wouldn't be able to tell. So, slow-blink and she just looked at him for a second, eyes inky and puffy, and she decided he was maybe ok. He didn't look bad like she'd seen him look in hospitals before, and that was a good sign, yeah? And she knew, somehow, that Lou would take care of Daniel if things did go bad or whatever, if Daniel couldn't handle it. That was evident in the way Lou looked at him, yeah? But it was all good, and she tipped her head and smiled up at Cris tired when he kissed her hair and filled in answers she didn't know.
And she wasn't surprised no one had asked what the kid looked like. Lou and Iris were too polite, and maybe Daniel didn't know it was a worry or whatever. She couldn't remember, but the meds in the IV weren't so good with her memory, and she just assumed everyone was being nice. That was how Iris and Lou were, yeah? Unfailingly polite or whatever.
She barely glanced at the bag with the food, and there wasn't any interest in her face for it. But that shit was nothing new. Sam wasn't big on eating lately, and especially not now, yeah? The nurses said by tomorrow, when the IV was gone, and when moving around was less sore. And it wasn't a big deal, her lack of appetite, since she wasn't breastfeeding.
Lou offered a hand, and she shook her head. She didn't wanna walk again yet, and it would take forever if she went with them, yeah? It had taken like twenty minutes to just get downstairs from the room, and the nursery was further. And, ok, so maybe she didn't want to BE there. After all, the kid was all hooked up like some Frankenstein's monster or something, and that was her fault. She didn't want to see the worry and disappointment on their faces. "Nah, I wanna sit a little more. Maybe have a smoke, yeah?" The door to the courtyard was RIGHT THERE, and she knew someone would bum her a smoke if she went out. "I think you can all go up to the NICU, yeah?" She looked at Cris for verification. "Just not into the nursery at the same time or whatever."