[New Year’s Eve: Hannah & Jeremiah]
Maybe it as ridiculous but he felt as if he could feel the weight of all the things unsaid, although he wasn't certain exactly what those things were. Was it about him, or about her, or just, things that could be said someday, and wouldn't be said tonight. He didn't know.
"I think there's family that you're born into, and there is family that you choose," he offered softly. "I think lonely happens whether you have people in your life or not," he chewed on his lower lip for a moment, his gaze drifting back towards the crowd. "At least I think that's been true for me. But my mother has always been there for me, regardless, and it seems my father - my biological one - may be as well. I don't know about my siblings, or the father I grew up with. I'd like to think so."
His eyes flickered back to her, gaze sliding over her face, curiosity in it. "I don't write programming software. I never have been interested in it. I'd make a very bad employee," he offered.
I never thought I'd want a monogamous relationship," he confessed. "I couldn't see myself ever settled. But I think that's changed. I do want one, or at the very least, I want a relationship that is home, even if it were not entirely monogamous. I guess I should have known I'm too much of a romantic to not want to fall in love someday." They'd talked of love before, he remembered. Remembered that she hadn't ever been in love.
He caught her hand, and slid his fingers into hers so that they were entwined together, firm and comfortable and he reached his other hand up to touch her cheek, and push a hair back. "Maybe you're putting too much pressure on what you think it should be - with Jamie I mean. You said you thought your family was where everyone understands everything, and your fights are just little bumps, but I don't think that's necessarily family. And maybe it's somebody's family, but it isn't yours, and that's not a moral failing, it's just - the places things are right now. What if Jamie were a friend you got to know, rather than someone you felt you had to know a certain way, or had to have a certain relationship with? I think one think I learned with all this stuff with my Dad - Dads - was that it became a lot easier to get along with Isaac - that's the father I grew up with - when I stopped trying to make him something he isn't. Not easy, mind you. Just better."