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Tweak says, "padawan"

Hannah Grace Cleage AKA Killough (theslowburn) wrote in reesyn_nm_rpg,
@ 2008-09-04 22:43:00

Entry tags:

[status] complete, [status] incomplete, hannah cleage, jackson briggs

Con't from Aimee Leon's first night in the biker bar
Who: Jackson Briggs and Hannah Cleage
When: August 29th in the Biker Bar bathroom, talking during this:http://asylums.insanejournal.com/reesyn_nm_rpg/3900.html?thread=143932#t146748
Where: The Bike Bar
Rating/Warning: for language use of profanity, alcohol and light drugs

Re: Con't
jackson_briggs
2008-09-04 09:36 pm (local) (link)
"But he's right, he's right. I may be good with woman but just for my body,

for my sex skills and that's not fucking good enough for me anymore. I want someone who actually wants me for me, not because I'm a great fuck. And now I.... I'm a fucking shit and I fucked up and I deserve the pain and hurt. It's what I'm used to, it's what I deserve for being who I am."
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Re: Con't
theslowburn
2008-09-04 09:40 pm (local) (link)
"HEY!" She grabbed him by the hair and then his chin, she turned him to look at her.

"Ya know, that's shit right? You ain't deservin' no pain and hurt and ya shouldn't be used to it, neither."

She pulled him back against her gently and continued to rock them back and forth. Taking a toke of her joint. She needed to mellow and hard.

"Your father was right about one thing, the day he stuck himself inside your momma and they made you. After that, he ain't been right about shit."

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	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 03:20 am UTC (link)
	He wrapped his arms around her waist and clung to her tightly. "Why are you still here? After everything I've done to you you're still here. I don't deserve that. What could you possibly see in me that would make you want to even be nice to me?" (Reply to this) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 03:38 am UTC (link)
	"Why are you? I don't see you running away." She took another took of her joint and let it go. "I don't see nearly as bad a person as you tend to believe you are, Jacks. I see a lot of good in you,everyone has their dark side. Stop telling me what you deserve or don't." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 03:58 am UTC (link)
	"And you think you deserve how I treat you? I called you a tight ass, I fucking called you that. You don't fucking deserve that. You deserve much better than some man whore who girls just want for sex and get. They get what they fucking want from me. I don't even know what the fuck you want from me, if you want anything. 'Not any more.'" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

theslowburn
2008-09-05 04:25 am UTC (link)

"No, but people treat each other badly all the time, they also treat each other wonderfully. True you've hurt me and I've hurt you too. Neither of us deserve these caustic words or actions. If we don't break the cycle now, who will? Besides, you are not all that bad, you have many good qualities. I just think you are hurting and you use sex to smooth that pain away. I am sorry, but for all your bad qualities I see many good ones and I plan to stick around and be the mirror that shows you. for better and worse, our ind, we mate for life and in that we can either help the others heal and make it through the pain and bullshit or we can choose to hate and continue the pain and degradation. It is my body, my mind, my soul and my right to give you another chance baby."

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	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 04:30 am UTC (link)
	He pulled back and looked at her. "You're..... you're giving me another chance?" he asked. His voice was a mixture of hope and disbelief." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 04:53 am UTC (link)
	"As my friend, yeah...we will start from there and work our way back to the top, OK?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 05:01 am UTC (link)
	'As her friend,' he thought to himself. And working their way back up, whatever the top was for them. But he'd take from her what he could, what she was willing to give him. Better to have her as a friend than not at all, even though it hurt. It hurt but it was better than nothing. "OK," he said. "OK." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 04:41 pm UTC (link)
	She ran her hand through his hair and kissed his temple. Just letting him lean against her as she finished her joint. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 05:16 pm UTC (link)
	He clung to her breathing hard. He didn't speak, he just too in the smell and presence of her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 05:26 pm UTC (link)
	She rocked him softly, realizing that he needed the comfort. She kissed his temple and held him close. "It's OK, it's OK." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 05:35 pm UTC (link)
	He needed the comfort but it killed him to take it because in his heart he held he didn't deserve her comfort. He wanted to tell her it wasn't OK but he couldn't find his voice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 05:55 pm UTC (link)
	He deserved it, because he was her mate and he was also her best friend, whether he believed it or not. She felt his unease and didn't know what to do about it. "I'm sorry. Even now, I just can't give you what you need. You are my best friend, Jacks. Even if we fight all the time." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 06:04 pm UTC (link)
	"Yes you can. You can and you do. How does a fucking screw up like me possibly deserve this from you? You're so sweet and pure and I'm a man whore. A man whore who fucks any girl who wants it. A fuck up up fucker." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 06:10 pm UTC (link)
	"I am not so sweet and pure. And you are not that much of a screw up. Everyone has their issues. All I can say, is that you have to forgive yourself and get over this hurdle. And again, I am not that great of a person, I'm really not." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 06:15 pm UTC (link)
	He pulled back and looked at her. "I think you are. And I hate your Dad for what he's done to you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 06:23 pm UTC (link)
	"He didn't do anything to me, he is a non issue. I just think he broke when he couldn't have his true mate and I don't want to be like them." She said, looking him in the eye. Trying to will him to understand. 'Thank you, by the way that you think that. Means a lot, it does." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	He nodded. He understood what she meant. "Course I think that, how could I not." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't know, I mean..." She blushed and ducked her head, then smiled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	He caressed her cheek gently. "You're amazing." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	"Thank you. " She smiled. "Now if only you opened your eyes and realized that you are too." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	"You think I'm amazing?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 07:10 pm UTC (link)
	"Yea, it what I've been trying to tell you for so long. So, you have some character flaws? Who doesn't?" She offered a soft smile. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-05 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	"You have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that," he said softly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theslowburn 2008-09-05 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah^ it's "Yeah? I am glad it means a lot to you. It should. I mean it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackson_briggs 2008-09-06 06:41 am UTC (link)
	"Thank you, for thinking it," he said softly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)