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NotEverything ([info]noteverything) wrote in [info]qaf_drabbles,
@ 2008-01-21 22:46:00

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Entry tags:author: ne, challenge #48: angst

*Challenge #48: Angst*
Title: Never
WARNING/Notes: It's a death!drabble. DO NOT READ IF YOU'RE NOT PREPARED FOR THAT! Thanks to [info]pendulumchanges for the beta and the hand-holding and for pushing me to add some oomph. <3! I don't think I'll write death!fic again...it's harder than I expected.
And the condom goes to: Brian




Brian felt like he'd been awake forever. He'd managed to finalize the arrangements on his own, even accepting sympathy calmly and graciously.

But now, as he walked toward the gravesite with Michael and Gus, he couldn't remember getting dressed that morning or the ride to the service or even arriving at the cemetery.

He couldn't look at his family gathered around the grave. He knew he would see the pain in their eyes and that when he did, his heart would shatter. So he stood, stunned and solitary, staring at the casket. He'd never find a way to say goodbye.

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[info]secretsolitaire
2008-01-22 05:15 am UTC (link)
*wails*

He'd never find a way to say goodbye.

This is why Justin!death!fics absolutely gut me. *goes off in search of fluff*

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 09:43 pm UTC (link)
Let me say, even though it gutted you, I appreciate that you read it *and* commented. Thank you.

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[info]gmta_nz
2008-01-22 05:55 am UTC (link)
I hope it's not true you're not going to write any more death!fics, because this one is beautiful.

As you know, I adore Justin to the point of obsession. And I'm completely addicted to fics where he dies! Perhaps because then I can indulge in Brian's pain and really feel his love for him? Who knows?

But if you write more, even longer, death!fics, rest assured you have at least one devoted reader :)

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 09:47 pm UTC (link)
I must say that I knew about your Justin love, but not your love for Justin death!fic. And I do think that indulging in Brian's pain makes sense. *I* adore Brian and *love* Brian in pain. It's just damn good stuff in my opinion.

Although this was my first time to write death!fic, I don't shy away from it. Brian and Justin aren't immortal, everybody dies. I see no reason not to explore that in fiction.

So, thank you for appreciating the genre AND for saying mine was beautiful.

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Why do you think we love it when Giastin dies, Clo'?
[info]miley
2008-01-22 10:02 pm UTC (link)
We do.

We are...very twisted *__*

The more we love him, the more seeing him die makes us suffer pleasurably.

Or something.

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Re: Why do you think we love it when Giastin dies, Clo'?
[info]flashfly
2008-01-31 10:07 am UTC (link)
Me too, I like him dead.

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[info]passing_through
2008-01-22 06:16 am UTC (link)
Tweedy, you and Pend are KILLING me today :(

So sad and gut-wrenching. Poor Brian.



(we need to schedule another chat so we can talk about happy things)

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 09:50 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry...I just really wanted to see if I could write death!fic that worked.

But, sure HAPPY chat is good for me...do you have a day that's better this week? I think every night will have to be fairly late and fairly short. I really need to get caught back up on my sleep. I have a hell of a time sleeping when BK's not home and he's been gone a LOT this month.

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[info]passing_through
2008-01-22 10:39 pm UTC (link)
I'll e-mail you guys to set up a time/day.


Awww - I got "It was love to me" when I opened up the page to respond. How appropriate and sad :(

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[info]xanister
2008-01-22 01:52 pm UTC (link)
Is it horrible that I was trying to guess before I clicked the link who died?

It was really beautiful though and I don't often indulge in death!fics I can stomach death drabbles since they're often less painful in the long run. This was truly beautiful and while painful teh love was there.

I'll SUN, I'm just rambling.

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 09:51 pm UTC (link)
I don't think that's horrible at all! I'm always curious in death!fic.

And I do agree that in drabble form they're a bit easier to handle! Thank you for your kind words on mine.

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[info]ex_4cupcakes771
2008-01-22 04:49 pm UTC (link)
You and Pend are killing me....I am seriously going to have to invest in Puffs stock or something....And something sick about me really gets off on feels it when it's Brian mourning over Justin...I think because Justin is always so open with his emotions. We almost always KNOW what he's feeling. Brian is somewhat more cryptic. But when he's really emoting, it's just a beautiful experience, even when it's painful. Well done.

Maybe my ideal death!fic is for Brian & Justin at 109 and 97 doing a good old Thelma and Louise...I don't know..That's really morbid isn't it? Or my kids do love Futurama...maybe they could freeze themselves and end up 1000 years in the future and NEVER DIE...that would be PERFECTLY cracky! See what all this death!fic has done to me...it's made me crazy....

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 09:54 pm UTC (link)
If I ever happened to write a real, substantial death!fic, it would definitely be Justin who dies. Because I get off on it feel it more that way too. ;-)

I love your Futurama idea...then B/J actually COULD live forever. Thanks for reading and for your comments!

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[info]ex_4cupcakes771
2008-01-22 11:35 pm UTC (link)
Yeah and I could definitely see a Bender vs. Brian SNARK-OFF...That would be awesome.

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[info]miley
2008-01-22 10:00 pm UTC (link)
!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg, so very painful in this twostedly good way...♥

Thank you for the sweet hurting :')

*gives you a flower*

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-22 10:08 pm UTC (link)
*smooshes flower to her chest*

Thank you my darling. If it's a hurt that you love, I am happy that I could give it to you. *kisses*

Thank you!

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[info]singlewoman
2008-01-23 01:38 am UTC (link)
*SOB* So sad, but that is exactly how Brian would act.

He'd never find a way to say goodbye.

You're killing me, but it is so good.

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[info]noteverything
2008-01-23 11:06 pm UTC (link)
Awwww. Thanks... :D

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[info]catcayman
2008-01-27 02:25 am UTC (link)
Oh wow. Nicely written and wonderfully evocative, but, oh, my heart breaks for Brian.

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[info]noteverything
2008-03-16 06:08 pm UTC (link)
Thank you!!!

You know my love for Brian...his heart breaking makes me all angsty and then I love him even more!

And I apologize for not responding to this sooner...it got buried in my email and I totally overlooked it. *hugs* Hope you're feeling good and that all is well!

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